i miss old nano chan with nano...where is it....
was active on there when i was like 16 so a bunch of guys were trying to groom me but some were actually nice people...like the uhhh madoka and and there were two mikoto guys....where is everyone

everyone roped

NOOOO!!! SHOULDVE BEEN ME!!!!!! MY BABIES!!!!!!!!!

>16
what does this have to do with child sex

You're Roro?

>when i was 16
Nanopedos aren't interested in you anymore.

YES DO YOU REMEMMBER ME

im almost 19 now too so now that theres nobody interested in grooming me i can finally make real friends

>madoka
that fag got groomed himself
>two mikoto
one got trafficked and the other just vanished

its over

im not up with the nano lore what the fuck happened. i only knew the dutch mikoto not the other. and madoka? wasnt he a kid too what happened. what

>all lowercase text
>word....word
>new line after a few sentences, no period at the end of the last sentence of a line
lacroix pedo dyke psyop detected

>>P83238

im just a silly girl

do you guys remember my cat? and my edgy arm ofc but my cat look at her.

imagine coming to anonymous sites to literally get groomed online fr fr lol
smh the an nonny mouse culture has sunk low, there is no pride in browsing tor shite anymore
we need more tech threads

P83241

i was underage so no matter what sites i went on guys wanted to groom me :> but now im 18! faggots cant touch me anymore

P83243
*touches you*
haha, jokes on you! :3

P83245

oh no how terrible i would hate it if you killed me and dumped me somewhere because i totally want to continue living

P83247
sounds reasonable
never intended to murder you anyway lol

P83250

please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please

P83251
*headpat*

P83252

P83253
do you cut?
i don't because afraid of cutting myself lmao but they say it's comfy

P83254

its not comfy, its an addiction thats given me permanent nerve damage and disfigured arms and legs. please dont do it.

P83256
*drives a finger along your scars gently*
sorry i wasnt there to protect you,,,,,,

jeesh i'm so gay lol

P83257

i just died a bit on the inside. hey anon, im in psych wards sometimes. wanna join?

P83258
>i just died a bit on the inside
do you mean from that protect you phrase? it was a meme btw sorry
>hey anon, im in psych wards sometimes
can you post on onions from there?
>wanna join?
sometimes i want to sit in a padded room and just stare into a wall but not often enough to actually be there i guess
i also don't want to eat stupid pills or be mistreated by staff lmao
like ok, it won't necessarily happen but i'm fine as i am rn i guess

P83259

im not in the ward atm, and you can be on onions and other boards most of the time. 4chan did randomly get ip banned in the area though, mustve been some retard.

for me it was an actually kinda pleasant experience, if you ignore the screaming people in the hallways. we cooked and ate dinner together every afternoon with staff, it felt like i had a proper family. also for once i could relate to someone because most people there were somehow like me.

it was a bit different from most wards though. they dont check your bags and they let you have knives and blades. they also let me cut myself. they say that they dont believe that forcibly taking things away from you will make you better. it does work for the people who actually want to improve themselves, they often end up giving their blades to the staff by themselves. but for the ones like me that have no plans on recovering, its just good that i can keep on cutting.

the fag who kept trying to get you to kys on nano goes by "jeffie" and "jb" now

>madoka
he goes by faggotchan (and previously remilia), he was distraught about you leaving and thought you had kys

P83261
P83262

well i tried but here i am

nanochan is here: http://nanochanrayhy7nuuhldw2n4sq7tmv7xzdwaxtbptetss5eaznwfknyd.onion/ 'allegedy' run by former a rogue mod from there

P83261
P83264
hikari trying and failing to manipulate another girl lol
https://wiki.installgentoo.com/wiki/Nanochan#Spinoffs
>Nanochanray - Unofficial nanochan clone created in May 2022 during an extended nanochan downtime with a copy of the original site's posts up to that point, in an apparent attempt to save the community from endofunctor's incompetence. Unfortunately the nanochanray admin practiced overly aggressive moderation and dishonesty with users. For example, he gaslighted users with falsified moderation logs by rolling back the database to remove posts without adding them to the logs. [2] Numerous wordfilters, including the admin's suspected former moniker "hikari", trigger fake connection errors. Unlike the original nanochan, nanochanray neither publishes its source code nor its database. The admin of nanochan claims to have been a part of the original nanochan's moderation team, but has refused to offer proof, which he could easily provide with a PGP signed post. He continuously attempts to rewrite history to make his clone appear as the "official" continuation of the original nanochan, including edit warring on this wiki page. He has accompanied his edits with threats to "attack" lambdaplusjs, which were followed by child porn spam on the site.

yes i'm the guy who deleted this ^ person's "go kys" post in your thread and told you not to kys

he is very salty about the fact he's not allowed on nanochan anymore

The slav psych ward experience is horrible

as are a lot of people on this site, this is where the people who don't like that i did that are

P83264
It's unreal how you keep on gaslighting and lying.

P83265
Not fair, you beat me to it.

P83266
P83267
hikari still doesn't know who i am lol
permalink in case he edits that article again lol
https://wiki.installgentoo.com/index.php?title=Nanochan&oldid=54962

it's not a spinoff btw, it is the only nanochan there is.

thank you for link
feels very nostalgic.
i shall be an attention whore

practically the entire purpose of this site is to be a comfy place for shitty people who think it was bad to delete that guy's post and that you should have kys. obviously they don't want anyone using nano as it is now 'allegedly' run by someone who deletes their posts.

anyway enough drama sorry about that and you're welcome

P83219

muh nano

P83260
wow thanks for sharing
sounds kinda nice
>its just good that i can keep on cutting
do you lick yourself?
i always lick my blood away when accidentally cutting myself because hate to get things dirty
it's so awful if i get nosebleeds lol
blood has a nice taste i guess
haha
eating lol

P83264
i don't trust hikari at all for what he did to nano

P83273
you're welcome lol
feel free to ask for any clarification lol

P83274
>the entire purpose of this site is to be a comfy place for shitty people who think it was bad to delete that guy's post and that you should have kys.
schizocow desperately trying to create new evil bogeyman narrative about his enemies lol
not going to work lol

P83279
this is one of the fags who thinks it's "based" to be mean and shitty.

P83278
dont usually lick it but i do suck on some of them to get the bleeding to stop!

as for this board or the new nano, i think ill keep being an attention whore on both of these. lots has happened, i have lots to spam you with :>

oh also he and someone who claims to be the admin of this place also brag (lying) that he ('jb') 'stole' you from me.

lol

P83283
>someone who claims to be the admin of this place
hikari claims to not like drama but is the first one to bring it in to every thread he posts with lies that no one ends up believing lol

P83282
based
>i think ill keep being an attention whore on both of these
well i'm not going to go to that nano
hikari doesn't like shitposting anyway lol

P83289
it isn't lies.
if that's not an embarrassment idk what is

P83293
sure thing lol
now that she's on a site you are powerless on she'll be able to talk freely with people other than you lol
prepare to get cucked again lol

all of this is confusing aaa...

theres so much to talk about! choose a topic:

-1st irl boyfriend!
-2nd irl boyfriend!
-psych ward!
-suicide attempts!
-appearance changes!

be on the lookout lol

how was i stolen i dsont remember who tf hikari is

P83298
ikr

P83296
Hearing about people having relationships makes me feel lonely. Go with psych ward I guess.

P83298
Don't bother. There's so much schizophrenic metadrama going through this failed powermod's head that you'll never be able to make sense of it.

P83297
hikari thinks this is going to work on his 1000th attempt of it lol

P83300

good enough because both relationships went/are going to shit.

around the time i had quit being on nano before coming back in early 2022 my friend had killed herself, so i was doing very bad. shortly after turning 18 i got admitted to the psych ward for the first time. they wanted to put me on stronger meds but they dont trust that i wouldnt OD on them. i ended up being there for two weeks. I went back home, but after things went bad at home, they let me come back for 2 days. 2 days eventually turned into 2 weeks, and then 2 months.
after pretending i was doing better, i moved to a group home to learn to be independent. i lived there for about 6 weeks, only going to the psych ward for a total of about 3 nights. but eventually they caught on my bullshit and lies and i couldnt be there anymore because i was too suicidal. in that time i had started going to college, and then dropped out.

after quitting the group home, i was technically homeless until my mom let me live with her again which is where i am now. they were originally planning on sending me back to the ward because i was too suicidal so they had a doctor look at me, and she decided that i was safe to go home because i dont have the balls to jump in front of the train.

now im like a month psych ward free and on heavy antidepressants. also supposed to be on antipsychotics but i throw those away.

P83300
this is one of the fags associated with this site.

P83298
hikari is a mod name i used on nano for a while and i think nowhere else. i didn't post with a name or use an avatar. we also spoke very briefly on telegram iirc.

P83302
I would be very grateful if you could list your prescription meds

ohhh maybe
my og telegram account is deleted.
new one is https://t.me/verapantsu
i also prefer to go by either karo or vera now. roro was a nickname by the guy grooming me.
nice to meet you guys again :>
i miss mikotofag though

P83304

olanzapine 10mg (dont take)
clomipramine 175mg (take)

also lots of vitamins and a birth control bc i hate periods

P83305
>i miss mikotofag though
he left home (it was bad there from what he said) and went to live with some people he met on the internet. lost his laptop on the way there but i believe he is doing ok and he got back with his old gf i think. memory is hazy.

>clomipramine 175mg
Better than what i expected

there was a whole thread he made about leaving, on another board which also eventually shut down by its admin (it was for the best, it was full of spam)

P83308
so far it only helps with anxiety. depression is completely the same. but i might be getting new meds yet again, but for my tics

P83307
i hope hes doing good :( i remember his family not being the best, we called before n it was nice talking to him

>i remember his family not being the best
indeed.
>we called before n it was nice talking to him
i remember he mentioned that

cowe cucked again

P83297
damn when did i become a text idol for fat smelly bovines

speaking of fat i gained weight....im 49kg now. and both my scales are broken so i dont even know my real weight. donate 25 euro to me?

P83311
anyway idk for sure what happened to him but i believe he's alive and well though lynn/lrh also hasn't heard from him in a long time (idk if you remember her?).

P83302
can you pls describe the effect the meds have on your thoughts, on your feels? like i dunno, talk about whatever but i want to hear the most complete picture if it's possible for you ofc. like, without meds, then them kicking in, then on the effect, then coming down. i dunno why i'm trying to talks as if they were other type of drugs lol, just answer to something that makes sense to you i guess

also
>telegram
you guise are craaaaaaaaaaazy
that app ain't safe, consider using matrix at least
i think even discord is better but please don't use discord for nano stuff lol
>period
wth i am used to an exclusive male weeb company lmao pls go away
jk pls stay i don't really care lol

P83322
>49kg
go exercise you weakling
when u manage to run 6km in like 30 minutes come back for another task lol
>donate 25 euro to me?
sorry i'm broke
i also don't trust random ppl on the internet with money lol

P83324
the effect of starting clomipramine is similar but less strong than starting olanzapine. pretty much you're a zombie for 1-2 weeks. really, really sleepy and tired. for the first month of so, it kind of works but in a weird way. when i feel sad, its almost like my emotions have been blocked off. i need to cry, but nothing comes out. then it spreads to other feelings. im not capable of being sad nor happy properly, it feels like theres a wall.
after getting used to it, that dies down a bit. could be due to autism and other issues but i still have trouble crying or feeling the right emotions. i already had this before my meds but i think this just increased it. like ill cry over a very small thing like a small remark but then have a straight face as my loved one screams at me. also when i have panic or anxiety attacks, they are solely the quiet ones.

>that app ain't safe, consider using matrix at least
used matrix to talk to makoto, it was too much work aaaa. i do use discord and tele and forgot my matrix account

>period
started taking it as antibabypillen but turns out you can keep taking it continuously without a break so that you stop having a period. i dont have many side effects so thats pretty cool :>

P83326
oh yeah forgot to mention
couple months after leaving nano i was put in forced recovery for anorexia which made me gain almost 20kg. i went all the way to 59kg.
good news is im back to under 50kg (i hope) and turns out if i stretch a bit, then i am 159cm instead of 158cm.

>sorry i'm broke
me too i cant afford food rn much less a new scale. but i have my eyes on this 25 euro hello kitty one. i really want it. generous anon reading this, my paypal is konatagore, with konata pfp. mwah, i love money.

P83307
>went to live with some people he met on the internet. lost his laptop on the way there
holy hell that does sound like a beginning of an epic story with a sad end, like where he gets disassemled for organs or enslaved
ofc i don't know anything about his fate
btw is there a nano circlejerk irc now since mikoto is gone?

P83330
>btw is there a nano circlejerk irc now since mikoto is gone?
teaparty7fcvgglf3bynas7dinkx4h3xhcb5rmvqj24e6yuepwctbsad.onion/6667

P83327
ok thank you for sharing
>i need to cry, but nothing comes out
i don't think it's a good thing to be like that
i am kinda like that as i cry very rarely but i take no pills for that
nevertheless i think it may be a bad thing, like crying brings relief, but now i am just a stone cold killa lmao
anyway it kinda confirms some of my thoughts about the meds, like they are not necessarily good for you but makes other people happy that you don't try to smash your head against the wall or something lol
>used matrix to talk to makoto, it was too much work aaaa
just install element and use it lmao what the hell are you doing hahaha
>i dont have many side effects so thats pretty cool
i think being on meds in general is kinda bad for your kidneys and perhaps other stuff as well, so you may consider quitting in the future. that goes for antidepressants too, but those may be necessary for now.
like, my general standpoint on meds is you have to quit them eventually because they bad lol
i don't mean to make you anxious about that though, you do you

P83328
>waaa i'm a lil mentally ill girly girl 158cm/49kg UwU
where do you think you are, some hookup site?
jeesh lol
hopefully you're a troll kek
>me too i cant afford food rn much less a new scale. but i have my eyes on this 25 euro hello kitty one
lmao ok, STRONG scammer vibes hehehe

P83345
thank you kind sir
not gonna visit it right now lol

>STRONG scammer vibes
im a mentally ill teenage girl of course i love money wym scam smh
id post my weight here if i got the scale
i post my weight in hopes you guys call me fat, as i think i have gotten very fat.

as for the meds, im terribly suicidal so i dont really care about long term effects. me and my therapists and going to start working on a trajectory for assisted suicide. im limited edition! plus, only bad bad side effects ive had were the first two weeks of birth control where i gained weight and ate like a whale but thats it

>i think being on meds in general is kinda bad for your kidneys
Normally it's only for the liver but since clomipramine is chlorinergic it does fuck with your kidneys, but i don't believe that mf's take shit like that for enough years to gather up any kidney damage.
Damn wait you were quoting the line about birth control, nah it's harmless for your kidneys.
>assisted suicide
Just rope

>me and my therapists and going to start working on a trajectory for assisted s
suicide
the what the actual fuck

P83350
>as i think i have gotten very fat
nah you are probably fine. 158/49 looks healthy on paper, girls could be even fatter i guess
if you wanna lose weight, exercise. just a bit of exercise daily will help you i think. oh it might completely blow your head off and you finally decide to kys for good, who knows? anyway i don't really approve the whole kys thing but i'm not talking you out of it, tho i might ask you some additional questions if you don't mind
>me and my therapists and going to start working on a trajectory for assisted suicide
they might be doing a crime too lmao wth
well anyway why do you want to kys? like, i, too, felt kinda suicidal in the past but i was able to think myself out of it, like i don't think i'm in the clear yet, but yea suffering is kinda too much, that's why i usually want to kms. what's your explanation? do you suffer a lot too? ok sounds kinda stupid but whatever lol

>Just rope

rope
1st try: rope slipped, i fell
2nd try: hung higher up, didnt dare to jump
3rd try: cat started meowing on the other side of the door

overdose
1st try: mostly paracetamol, called ambulance myself
2nd try: best so far. took everything. have memory loss. apparently i had seizures and was in a coma for 2 days. got pneumonia and was in a wheelchair for a week after
3rd try: gave myself pill trauma from last attempts so body just puked it all up. still got to hospital but nothing too bad.

cutting
1st try: ended up not being able to do it
2nd try: only did very light cut. survival instincts are crazy.

stabbing:
1st/2nd/3rd try: all failed bc of survival instincts, couldnt stab.

if your therapist is doing that i'm afraid your therapist is malfunctioning, they're supposed to help

P83354
>well anyway why do you want to kys?
on my 2nd time at the hospital for trying to kill myself, my diagnosis was changed. apparently i have chronic depression now. my therapist just turned to my mom and quietly told her to expect more of this to come.
all my caretakers and therapists pretty much confirmed that ill need therapy, psych wards and meds for the rest of my life. i dont want to live like this.

oh cool, roro is back and she looks a lot less retarded than last time
hello
did my post telling you to stop being a little bitch have that much of an impact on you?
did you actually even read it, or did the white knight cuckold's attempts to memoryhole it work?
i can repost if you want, courtesy of the cuck himself
i hadnt saved the post at the time, but he did me the favor of spamming it a few times when he thought someone else had written it
so let me know if you wanna read it
btw get off your meds, if youre gonna suffer from insanity, at least suffer from your own authentic insanity rather than artificial jewish insanity

>cat started meowing on the other side of the door
you should listen to what your cat has to say, cats know you shouldn't be kys.

P83359
this one is the fag who made up the bullshit about 'stealing' you and the asshole will be cackling about it for days if you take his bait and reply, not recommended.

P83359
please send it again, my memory is bad :>
i got off my antipsychotics, im just on my antidepressants for my anxiety ig. also to make my mom and therapists think im at least trying something.

>you should listen to what your cat has to say, cats know you shouldn't be kys.
when i overdosed pretty badly, i was in my room. my mom came back from work and was going straight to sleep. she only bothered to look into my room because my cat was meowing very loud in front of my door until she opened it. there she found me having seizures. if not for my cat, id be dead now. kinda pissed, but i love her too much to be mad at her.

P83361
i fell for bait...

>rope slipped, i fell
Maybe you're just predisposed to falling off a cliff.
>cat started meowing on the other side of the door
That's just pathetic. You should repeat roping until failure
>gave myself pill trauma from last attempts so body just puked it
Guess you weren't smart enough to take antiemetics

P83358
>my diagnosis was changed
nah that's not what i asked
i asked why you have decided to off yourself in the first place. like, specifically if possible. unless it's too personal or uncomfortable for you ofc, i'm not your doctor after all lmao
>i have chronic depression now
my take on the depres thing is kinda like one of the reasons it might happen is you are very tired of something. does something stress you out a lot? again it's ok to not share lol, also it may be a difficult question to answer too, like to point out precisely what eats your brain out. try to think about it
>psych wards and meds for the rest of my life. i dont want to live like this
yea it's kinda sad but if you can convince them you're a good healthy gurrrl, they might leave you alone. but it has to be some profound change i guess

P83362
>if not for my cat, id be dead now
epic story kinda tbh

P83368
>yea it's kinda sad but if you can convince them you're a good healthy gurrrl, they might leave you alone. but it has to be some profound change i guess
every couple months i do that to get out of the ward, or not be sent back to it. but then when im back home i land in the hospital again either because i keep needing stitches or because i tried to kms so it kinda busts me

>does something stress you out a lot?
everything does. knowing this is chronic and not going away even when life is bearable. my family, relationships, my past, my friends, my future, being poor, dropping out of school twice, lack of motivation for anything, losing all my friends and hobbies, being fired from my part time job, self harm addiction. everything is too much for me. im constantly getting triggered and overwhelmed like some retard. even when im doing good, my only instinct is to self sabotage and ruin it. the logic is that "if i ruin it myself then it hurts less than when it inevitably goes wrong later". and if i do decide to leave things be, they do end up going wrong and proving my point. every time something good happens, it goes to shit. ive become genuinely scared of good things. i just want it all to end, im so tired ill never be a clueless happy kid again my childhood got taken away from me and now im both mentally and physically ruined

my head hurts a lot so im gonna sleep
goodnightie, love u guys :>

P83362
>please send it again
there you go

P83361
sounds to me like someone is afraid of yet another girl giving me more attention :^)
>the asshole will be cackling about it for days if you take his bait and reply
ofc i will
is there any greater joy for an attention whore than getting attention?

P83373
well don't try to kys then what the hell are you doing lol?
inb4 it keeps happening :3
god i deserve punches for some of my jokes lmao
>everything does
okay i kinda see.
tbh i don't know what might help you i think you should do something like establish a small comfort zone where you feel comfy and safe and able to enjoy life. don't worry about performing as a healthy adult as you are clearly not ready for it yet, so all that job stuff, school, whatever, might as well forget about it for now. other ppl might give you shit for that but you can ignore them as i think a person's most important person is oneself (that means you are the most important person for you, not anyone else). i dunno what else to say, try to enjoy life, play with your cat lmao, eat, sleep, do simple stuff until you are able to do more. pushing yourself a little bit is okay, pushing yourself a lot is bad. take it easy lol

that's super unprofessional mental health advice but i do think it's the best one can do with text lmao

>from me and now im both mentally and physically ruined
nah don't worry, who cares about little braindamage hehehe

P83377
gn

P83382
lmao jeffie is that your post?

>mentall ill
>159cm
>49kg
>financiall dependent
>19yo
OUHHHHH
Wife material
Too bad I'm on the same level as you when it comes to social relationships.
Actually, how are your relationships? Do you have any friends?
You mentioned having boyfriends, but not anything about friend friends if you get what I mean.
Sorry not sorry if I'm not up to date on the nanolore. Someone should seriously make a chart of all the character relationships.

P83373
>the logic is that "if i ruin it myself then it hurts less than when it inevitably goes wrong later".
Sounds like broken logic. Have you tried swapping it out?
If the outcome is bad either way how does it matter?
Learn to enjoy the volume of change. Change is a fun thing imo. Even if it is for what we label "bad".

P83385
yea
who else would be that based?

also i was writing a post to reply to this entire thread, but looks like she went to sleep already

P83387
>OUHHHHH
>Wife material
dont stick your dick in crazy, retard
its such a basic rule for survival
>Someone should seriously make a chart of all the character relationships.
funny you talk about that
im working on exactly that
i just need to figure out some program to plot all that shit
>Sounds like broken logic.
nah youre just too dumb to understand
>If the outcome is bad either way how does it matter?
one is worse than the other
would you rather scratch your knee or lose your whole leg?
<inb4 it doesnt matter either way

P83389
finish the school page fag

P83388
>who else would be that based?
u r such a hardass killa ilu lol
overall kinda reasonable post i guess
i wouldn't be as rude about it because i am kinda very soft and kind tbh but i find the notion of her being spoiled kinda accurate. i mean, she wouldn't have such a hard time coping with reality if she didn't have such high expectations of it but i also feel empathetic to her cause since i myself struggled a lot while trying to have simple joys in life lmao

P83387
ok denpa lol
the other guy said it, don't stick your dick in crazy
trust me, even so-called "mentally healthy" people are bad enough, but mentally ill can be as bad as "one day you drown in a pool of your own blood because they decided to be yandere"
do it only if you are a super skilled mental surgeon and still there is always a risk

P83389
>dont stick your dick in crazy, retard
I know.
I won't.
But this is the interwebz
>i just need to figure out some program to plot all that shit
Use GIMP?
Make a large canvas.
Make some rectangle selections.
Smooth selection edges.
Fill color.
These will be the groups.
Place characters.
Draw arrows between them.
Put text on the arrows.
Is it not that simple?
>one is worse than the other
I'm talking about life. Not merely biological survival.
There is no end goal to life itself other that that.
You can't do better or worse in life. You just alternative between situations.
There are feelings. You can feel "better" or "worse". But I've never been the feelings kind of guy.
Well I guess I can see your point.

P83393
Huh I can check off being called a denpa now.

P83394
what, you're not denpa? dam i have embarrassed meself lol
anyway still that post was kinda denpa-ish imo, so i just assumed there will be only one guy like that and with proper-ish writing style. don't care about identities too much

>practically the entire purpose of this site is to be a comfy place for shitty people who think it was bad to delete that guy's post and that you should have kys
uh... based?

P83410 ikr fat cow has shit taste from eating is own shit from its own cow ass it cant get out of its face inside the ray cube

P83395
>you're not denpa?
I don't blame you.
>don't care about identities too much
That's why we need the Nanochart so urgently.
So that no more misindentifaction occurs.
An era of peace and tranquility.
>database errors out on post
Great!

P83422

lol

lua is free speech

P83446

THIS!

no cap frfr

P83433
well who are you then?
>An era of peace and tranquility.
that would be the one without all the avafag drama, but that's like unachievable utopia kek

P83456
pre 2020 nc lol

P83456
>well who are you then?
A random anon. Nice to meet you.
>one without all the avafag drama
So everybody's dead?
>utopia
Such a nice name for a dream.
I believe it's possible.
Just try to imagine the level of comfy.
>incorrect captcha
>incorrect captcha
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AAAAHHHH

P83469
nah i was there it already had some

P83474
>A random anon. Nice to meet you.
oh nice, nice to meet you too
>So everybody's dead?
no, just nobody avafags lol
or all avafags are mentally stable adults who talk about stuff and not themselves, that's much less drama inducing
>Just try to imagine the level of comfy.
i don't have to imagine but i also doubt the population of lambda is going to achieve that
if it happens though, it's gonna be a nice surprise i guess
>AAAAHHHH
caught you, robot-chan
pls go on that desk for,,,
ehm
disassembly, yes!

P83489
not untrue it always had some

now was it like this

P83489
>caught you, robot-chan
>pls go on that desk for,,,
>ehm
>disassembly, yes!
>.<
Is it rape time?

P83506

>Is it rape time?

idk

ok did ljs just crash because of the antianimepenguin spam lol?

P83496
like what?
well maybe pre-2020 wasn't as serious, like i don't remember the strong circle of kinda like social network of people back then
still, were asuka or star or umaru or whoever i guess always comfy?
god my memory is bad lol

P83506
unfortunately for you, i'm a massive pervert

tbh it got me thinking that if that kind of rp was actually possible, like me catching a sexybot, then i'd rather do something weird like instead of actually screwing it, i'd rather infest its robobrain with some false memories of me driving it crazy, enslaving it to some massive degree, that kind of stuff. and after mindbreaking it into an obsession, i still wouldn't screw it because reasons

P83524
tbh i thought it was a guy originally
sorry i'm gay
also the gurl gone but ppl still shitposting, who cares

P83521
like something that makes a moo moo sound monotonously lol

P83539
do you mean hikari? well hikari is likely the worst that happened to the community i guess. isn't he pretty much the reason it had to close that way?
or do you mean me? lol sowwie for being a bore. a boar? teach me ways on how to be interesting, i will learn someday, i swear!

P83519
did i just get raped?

P83549
the community has not closed nya nya
>
yea gal im boring too looool

P83554
i was talking about nc but yea i phrased it poorly
>yea gal im boring too looool
i like talking to myself irl to pretend i have a conversation but i don't do it online (like samefagging) because kinda boring and ppl respond anyway. well given the current year chances are it's chatgpt but i don't think it's as smart yet to be as convincing

P83243
>i was underage so no matter what sites i went on guys wanted to groom me
maybe if youd just stfu about your age smh
ofc asking kids not to be annoying attention whores is asking too much

P83254
>i don't because afraid of cutting myself
dont worry, it doesnt really hurt
once you develop the taste for it, that is
then it actually feels p good ngl

P83256
>its not comfy
ig it really depends on your mindset
if you wanna disfigure yourself then it can be p comfy
i stopped several months ago, but sometimes i get in that 'im too handsome today, i should look uglier' mood
>permanent nerve damage
it can do that?
oohhhhhhh so THATS why it doesnt hurt anymore

P83257
>*drives a finger along your scars gently*
cringe
even i died a little inside

P83259
>sometimes i want to sit in a padded room and just stare into a wall
you can just lay down on your bed and state at the ceiling tbh
i call it ceiling watching
>i also don't want to eat stupid pills or be mistreated by staff
depends a lot on the place you are
if youre lucky, youre gonna get a hot sadistic nurse to torment you

P83260
>4chan did randomly get ip banned
you should thank them and find better places to browse
like ljs
>we cooked and ate dinner together every afternoon with staff
sounds comfy
maybe i should go jokermode too someday

P83261
oh hi hikari
i hope you dont mind if i cuck you again

P83273
>i shall be an attention whore
welcome home

P83278
>do you lick yourself?
yikes
>i always lick my blood away when accidentally cutting myself because hate to get things dirty
oh yea id always make a huge mess when i cut myself
then i figured out bandages
they are great at stopping blood from getting everywhere, imagine that!

P83282
>i do suck on some of them to get the bleeding to stop!
bitch thats disgusting
just get a bandage
just one
they are reusable, no matter what big pharma says
you can just wash them and theyre good as new

P83282
>this board or the new nano
>ill keep being an attention whore on both of these
new nano is a graveyard so youre only gonna get the attention of its schizophrenic admin
here youre gonna have several gay little animegirls to talk to
just you wait until denpa wakes up
he is even more insane and demented than you can ever hope to be
its actually good to talk to him so you can be grateful you havent hit rock bottom yet in terms of health

P83291
>hikari doesn't like shitposting anyway
he doesnt really like anything
idek why tf he even keeps that shithole up

P83296
>appearance changes!
tell me about that
if you have become a goth bih, then i might be interested

P83298
>i dsont remember who tf hikari is
hikari is a severely mentally ill abusive schizo
that why we call him SMIAschizo
you prolly dont remember him bc he is always using different names or no names at all bc he knows all the bad stuff he did under the hikari alias and wants to gaslight ppl into thinking he didnt do any of that

P83302
damn bitch, you live like this?
sounds miserable
no wonder you wanna die so much
yea idk what you can do besides coping

P83305
>new telegram
that shit glows
go to irc

P83306
>olanzapine
>clomipramine
im not a junkie so youre gonna have to explain to me wtf those are

P83307
sounds about right
i doubt he is ok tho
every other nanotranny eventually showed up again, even if briefly
he is prolly dead or enslaved

P83322
>im 49kg now
lmfao holy shit why are menhera girls always made of twigs?

P83328
>i went all the way to 59kg
see, now thats what normal ppl weight
>im back to under 50kg
get back up
nobody wants to cuddle with a sack of uncushioned bones
>158cm
>shortstack
even more reason to get fat tbh
>me too i cant afford food rn much less a new scale. but i have my eyes on this 25 euro hello kitty one. i really want it.
why the fuck do you want a fucking scale when youre starving
god dammit, white women really are insane
>generous anon reading this, my paypal is konatagore, with konata pfp. mwah, i love money.
post bob and vegana
if you want money youre gonna need to whore yourself for it

P83330
yup, i have no hope for the guy
he is lucky if he got the disassembly ending
better than being forcefully feminized into a sex slave

P83347
>i am kinda like that as i cry very rarely but i take no pills for that
>nevertheless i think it may be a bad thing, like crying brings relief, but now i am just a stone cold killa lmao
literally me fr!!!
>where do you think you are, some hookup site?
thats exactly what this place is
where trannies hook up to headpat one another

P83350
>me and my therapists and going to start working on a trajectory for assisted suicide
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaased
holy shit where do you live?
euthanasia should be normalized yea

P83352
funny pic

P83358
>all my caretakers and therapists pretty much confirmed that ill need therapy, psych wards and meds for the rest of my life
sounds shitty
is that even life anymore?

P83362
>antidepressants for my anxiety
how tf does that work?
arent antidepressants for, yk, depression?

P83368
>my take on the depres thing is kinda like one of the reasons it might happen is you are very tired of something
my take on depression is that most of the time it is actually ennui
ppl have nothing to live for, absolutely zero purpose in life
so why would they feel any motivation for getting out of bed?
why even do anything at all?
why endure the inherent pain of being alive?
better to just end it all at that point
>if you can convince them you're a good healthy gurrrl
wearing the mask of sanity requires high iq and a bit of self restraint
>epic story kinda tbh
yea thats shit straight out of a movie
how tf did the cat know? did it hear her seizing or what?

P83373
>im so tired ill never be a clueless happy kid again my childhood got taken away from me and now im both mentally and physically ruined
so basically, its over
yea im on the same boat
at least for me i get some solace that its not getting worse from where i am now
i have basically completely given up at this point
which means i get to just chill
ig thats what P83384 is trying to say
except for the 'slowly get better' part
thats just bullshit
you should just abandon hope and accept youre fucked and have always been fucked and will never not be fucked and there is nobody coming to save you

P83391
at some point i will

P83393
>u r such a hardass killa ilu lol
yea im a vewy dangerous threat to modern society uwu
>i wouldn't be as rude about it
i was going through my based blackpilled doomer phase at the time
>she wouldn't have such a hard time coping with reality if she didn't have such high expectations of it
youth is wasted on the young
>ok denpa lol
that sounded nothing like denpa

P83394
>Use GIMP?
>jump through several flaming hoops
>and do it by hand
>Is it not that simple?
fuck off
i dont wanna having to align shit and draw arrows and whatnot
i wanna write the description of a graph network in a config file and have the computer draw everything for me
i think ill use graphviz
>Huh I can check off being called a denpa now.
its ok, i dont think he meant to insult you

P83395
>that post was kinda denpa-ish imo
no it wasnt
what denpa are you talking about?
denpa was never horny like that even during his prime
dont get me wrong, he was horny
but never for 3dpd
>i just assumed there will be only one guy like that and with proper-ish writing style
nah lotsa fags go online to larp as scholars

P83433
>That's why we need the Nanochart so urgently.
dont worry, it will be done soon™

P83474
>A random anon.
no such thing
you must have an identity to post here

P83521
>i'm a massive pervert
welcome home

not recommended

P83607 true i recommend jeffies bussy instead much more feminine than roro

don't be fooled

no im pretty sure jeffies bussy is better than all the femcucks here will ever be

imagine if someone on real life tried to shit out that much nauseating drivel in one go, and kept attempting to brush over the shitty and abusive things they're saying with random disconnected ideas, all for the sake of feeling able to cackle and say haa haa you replied haa haa

P83616
silence cuckold
go sit on the cuck chair in the corner

P‍83616
but you did nigga like damn
take the meds and do something with your life fuck
imagine instead of rent free jd doggy prowling your mind you could have a child sex slave or something else jewish

dilate

im not trans sorry bucko

holy based, wth is that post lol

P83605
>dont worry, it doesnt really hurt
nah it's kinda deep neurotic fear of losing integrity of my body
i am able to dissociate from it, but i almost fainted after cutting me finger once lol
>cringe
>even i died a little inside
i thought it would be funny lol, like corny and gay like in animes
ofc cringe is also an option lol
>you can just lay down on your bed and state at the ceiling tbh
thanks i should do it more i guess
>they are great at stopping blood from getting everywhere, imagine that!
b-but i will dirty everything while trying to get the bandage lmao
>go to irc
irc is kinda ass too, unless it's some private trusty server, preferrably self-hosted, preferrably in tor lol
>better than being forcefully feminized into a sex slave
well i didn't have feminization or sex in mind, but i guess it's not super viable to enslave people for any other purposes these days. and i would guess he doesn't have some mad skills for ppl to hunt for on a black market and not super good at manual labor either
kinda cynical takes, but that really does sound sinister with the whole losing laptop and disappearing lmao
unless he hates us so much he doesn't want to show up ever
>where trannies hook up to headpat one another
you don't have to hook up for e-headpats kek
i mean i don't need anything else personally, so whatever
>ppl have nothing to live for, absolutely zero purpose in life
nah purpose really isnt necessary to live imo
like it probably could help with depression, but i think the sense of purpose in life comes from smaller things other than having some logical goals or whatever like that
also ennui IS life kek
>how tf did the cat know? did it hear her seizing or what?
probably
animals sense some things better than humans and complicated animals such as cats sense emotions to some degree too. like, the cat might have felt something unusual like her sobbing or sounds of seizing or smelling funny or something else
>except for the 'slowly get better' part
>you should just abandon hope
nah hope is good
also i'm not really thinking about her getting unfucked, more like you can play something even with bad cards. it's still gonna suck, but might as well try
>vewy dangerous threat to modern society uwu
>youth is wasted on the young
all me lol
>that sounded nothing like denpa
do i look like a person who reads lots of posts
dam i just skim over them and then receive complaints on reading comprehension smh
sometimes i read them ofc but not always lol
>its ok, i dont think he meant to insult you
i luv denpa lol ofc i was not trying to insult
>denpa was never horny like that even during his prime
akshually i concur, on a second thought i don't imagine denpa calling someone wife material and then proceeding with that friend talk, kinda too outgoing for denpa

working on the coveted relationship graph
graphviz is ok
here is the first draft
actually, here is just half of it
for bonus drama points fufufu
im gonna finish this and write more background story for the nano academy then the site is coming back online

P83634
>i almost fainted after cutting me finger
yikes
should prolly look into that, doesnt seen very healthy to me
>b-but i will dirty everything while trying to get the bandage lmao
just dont keep it inside your metal safe with 13 different locks, baka
>some private trusty server, preferrably self-hosted, preferrably in tor
thats exactly what teaparty is
imagine being given the link and not even looking into it and just assooming instead smh
>that really does sound sinister with the whole losing laptop and disappearing
yea p sus
>unless he hates us so much he doesn't want to show up ever
mf was posting 24/7 and even ran an irc server just to talk to ppl even more
no way he wouldnt have come back by now if he could
the only way out of nano is death
>nah purpose really isnt necessary to live imo
really depends on how you define 'live' tbh
>i think the sense of purpose in life comes from smaller things
i think the smaller things just make the daily grind more bearable
you something need more to do other than just maintaining the status quo to wanna get off your ass
unless the status quo is being threatened and you staked your whole life into it so then you have a good reason to fight to maintain it
but just cooming and gooming eventually get old
>ennui IS life
zoomzooms really think that, huh?
>nah hope is good
nah hope is painful
she wouldnt hate her life nearly as much if she didnt have hope it could be better
bc with hope comes the frustration of that hope never being fulfilled
but if you abandon hope, there is nothing to be frustrated about
it is what it is
>you can play something even with bad cards
why even
just fold and cut your losses
no need to waste what few chips you have remaining in a rigged game
>might as well try
why?
trying takes effort and why put effort in something you know is gonna suck?
<inb4 doing nothing sucks even more!
yea but doing nothing is free
>kinda too outgoing for denpa
yea
and nowadays denpa is an even bigger bottom bitch than ever

P83661
Change resents to pity / indifference.

P83661
Wow you wrote so much text. Leave some for someone else.

P83605
Reusing images is cool and all, it's not like we have an endless supply of new ones getting made everyday, But at this point it's like a human centipede.
<drives a finger along your scars gently
>cringe
ngl it's pretty gay and hot
>i also don't want to eat stupid pills
Most mental wards don't have soft rooms, and most mental wards don't prescribe pills without a good reason, because pills are actually pretty fucking expensive.
<we cooked and ate dinner together every afternoon with staff
>sounds comfy
I've been to three mental wards myself and it's a bad place to find yourself in. The food usually sucks and trust me cooperating with mentally ill motherfuckers to cook it is the worst shit ever. The bedrooms with bunkbeds are also constantly overcrowded as fuck and sleeping is nearly impossible when your inmates behave like they are getting possessed by demons.
The only fun part is bullying autistic girls, in one of my wards there was also a retarded and ugly one with a very severe case of some shit that deforms her entire face. Peak social interaction, you can say whatever with zero consequences, it's just like in that book about flowers for some rat, i don't really remember how it was called.
>im not a junkie so youre gonna have to explain to me wtf those are
Junkies don't give a fuck about most psychiatric meds
olanzapine is a poison that was carefully designed to gradually lobotomize your entire forehead part of the brain up until you're incapable of violence. I actually tried it myself, it's an amazing sleep med and it can be used to prevent the dopaminergic psychosis you get after overdosing on high-end cathinones, although it's kinda weak compared to other neuroleptics. I only used neuroleptics to prevent psychosis twice in my life because honestly being overwhelmed by clairvoyance and worms trying to crawl inside of your ear is better than becoming a vegetable for an entire week. They are also kinda exotic and hard to get, most counterfeit pharma shops rarely sell them because almost no one is interested. While Uranian pharmacies can sell you fucking codeine and baclofen without a prescription, the neuroleptics are actually very very tightly controlled and it's physically impossible to buy them without a prescription. Luckily schizos like roro are more than glad to sell all their stocks, it's just tough to find a customer.
clomipramine serves the same purpose but it's vitamin D in comparison, and sometimes it makes sleeping harder so it sucks ass and has no practical use cases. You're better off chewing batteries
>nobody wants to cuddle with a sack of uncushioned bones
Fat asses like you will never understand how comfy it is to cuddle skellies under blankets.
>shortstack
>even more reason to get fat tbh
wtf why?
i seriously don't get it, i thought it's the tall girls that could pull off the extra fat
>holy shit where do you live?
Prolly Canada judging by the meds and assisted suicide
>how tf does that work?
>arent antidepressants for, yk, depression?
You seem to be under assumption that antidepressants are supposed to combat depression, but most antidepressants are actually depressants, the antidepressants are mainly there to combat neurotic type of shit, they are just mislabeled for no particular reason. There are antidepressants that are supposed to combat "big sad" like bupropion, but they are only prescribed in mild cases of wanting attention from hot nurses, really depressed people still get prescribed horse tranquilizers like olanzapine that are primary tailored for neurotics, because even intravenous injection of meth can't spark joy in their eyes. So it's better to just keep their mood stable, it gets stably depressed and lethargic so you can prescribe even more pills.
>b-but i will dirty everything while trying to get the bandage lmao
Tried cutting yourself in a bathtub so you can just wash the blood away?
>irc is kinda ass too, unless it's some private trusty server, preferrably self-hosted, preferrably in tor lol
We are currently having a tea party.
>nah purpose really isnt necessary to live imo
>it probably could help with depression
Having a long term tangible goal is the greatest cope of them all, enjoying the small things is great and all but it's only possible with the correct brain chemistry and proper parenting.
>also ennui IS life kek
The fuck is ennui
<i almost fainted after cutting me finger
>should prolly look into that, doesnt seen very healthy to me
she's a girl, they are squeamish like that. I also fucking hate seeing blood too, only my own though, but instead of fainting i start to panic, it's not really panicy type of panic i get really concentrated on getting rid of the blood in the shortest amount of time. Fine with animal blood and others getting hurt. My brain also doesn't really thinks of my urine and shit as unhygienic, i know that they are but i just don't feel any disgust at all if it comes from my body, but seeing other's people piss and shit is always gross.

P83665
>Change resents to pity / indifference.
k im changing to misses / copes

P83681
>Reusing images is cool and all, it's not like we have an endless supply of new ones getting made everyday, But at this point it's like a human centipede.
wtf are you blabbering on about
that pic is good btw
on all level except physical, that girl is literally me
>I've been to three mental wards myself
why? stimulant psychosis sent you there?
>it's a bad place to find yourself in.
ig you cant really compare wards from europe to wards from ukraine
>sleeping is nearly impossible when your inmates behave like they are getting possessed by demons
<tfw you gotta share a bed with the epileptic schizo and not the cute autistic girl
>The only fun part is bullying autistic girls
thats true anywhere, but ig their population must be denser in their natural habitat
>in one of my wards there was also a retarded and ugly one with a very severe case of some shit that deforms her entire face
oh cool, we have one of those here on lambda too
>olanzapine is a poison that was carefully designed to gradually lobotomize your entire forehead part of the brain up until you're incapable of violence
is that what theyre putting in the water supply?
>used neuroleptics to prevent psychosis
wtf is that how it works?
depressants are actually just reverse stimulants and you can mix and match to counter the effects of one another?
is that why ppl mix alcohol with coffee? to turn it into water?
>Fat asses like you will never understand how comfy it is to cuddle skellies under blankets.
nah sounds painful
i prefer to hug an amorphous blob instead
picrel
>i thought it's the tall girls that could pull off the extra fat
i got two words for you: smol and wide
>Prolly Canada judging by the meds and assisted suicide
read the thread bakahead smh
she is begging in euro, so prolly europe
but yea canada is just american europe anyway
>You seem to be under assumption that antidepressants are supposed to combat depression, but most antidepressants are actually depressants
i see, i made the common mistake of assuming that english words make any fucking sense and that angloids didnt reduce morphology to a joke
>they are only prescribed in mild cases of wanting attention from hot nurses
what if i have a bad case of wanting to be bullied by hot nurses? what would they use to fix me?
>correct brain chemistry and proper parenting
damn, the 2 things everybody here lacks
>The fuck is ennui
funny word for 'too bored to live'
>she's a girl, they are squeamish like that
no the other one is the girl
this one is a girl(boy)
>i get really concentrated on getting rid of the blood in the shortest amount of time
and now you understand the appeal of self harm
congrats
>My brain also doesn't really thinks of my urine and shit as unhygienic
i see, so your blood is bad, but your shit and piss are ok
and its the reverse for other ppl's
>seeing other's people piss and shit
i was gonna ask but nvm

>amorphous blob
ofc if the blob is patchouli-shaped, even better

>like the uhhh madoka
surprised u remember sup buddy

goodmorning sillies!

P83387
>Actually, how are your relationships? Do you have any friends?
i have discord friends and one telegram friend. i used to have an irl friend group but they stopped talking to me when i got too mentally ill. now im only invited for big bday parties but excluded from most other things they do.
also i have a boyfriend right now. he likes girly stuff so i gave him my skirt and panties and bras which he wears every day. very cute. he did cheat on me with a 64 year old man. that hurt a lot, but i kept dating him. but now i dont know, because he has severe anger issues which scare me a lot and he already wants to get married and have kids within the next couple years. if i tell him i dont want to date, he will cut himself and get drunk and do drugs. thats what he usually does whenever i change any plans.

P83605
>tell me about that
in an attempt to not look like jailbait, i got piercings and ct + dyed my hair black. i looked a bit more mature. i have black snake bite rings and a black septum piercing. red flag much? my hair is now brown again and its getting longer because my boyfriend wants that. do miss my black hair. i also tried to learn makeup and even got black lipstick. but i can only get the cheap stuff and im bad at it so didnt get very far. i only put on some makeup if im going out for the night, which happens very very rarely.

>im not a junkie so youre gonna have to explain to me wtf those are
olanzapine is an antipsychotic. they usually give it to people with personality disorders like BPD
clomipramine is a stronger antidepressant, also works for things like OCD iirc

>lmfao holy shit why are menhera girls always made of twigs?
last time i was here i weighed close to 40kg but i was forced to gain weight. 49kg is pretty average for my height, i just want to be underweight again

>why the fuck do you want a fucking scale when youre starving
not knowing my exact weight is making me really stressed 24/7

>post bob and vegana
just wait till my boyfriend ends up beating me up someday like my ex lmao maybe ill be so desperate for attention and affection that ill do that. plus pics of me are no longer cp

>holy shit where do you live?
the netherlands. you can get euthanised for mental health issues here, even if youre only 18. its a very small chance though but im willing to take it

>arent antidepressants for, yk, depression?
despite the name many people get the prescribed solely for anxiety. some are even known as mainly anxiety meds

>how tf did the cat know? did it hear her seizing or what?
my cat has a thing for knowing whenever i dont feel well. when i have a panic attack and scream and cry she panics and runs to me meowing and headbutting me. helps me calm down. mustve been something like that but i have no memory of what happened

>which means i get to just chill
except i cant chill because i dont have financial security or anything

P83684

>surprised u remember sup buddy
MEOW!!!!

anons i might be homeless soon

my mom has pretty severe paranoia which makes her quit her job every 2 weeks so she cant hold a job. now she wants to move to belgium to try new jobs again so that she can ruin them with paranoia once again.
if i leave the netherlands, i lose all my therapists and therapy groups, all my irls, my boyfriend, and everything ive spent almost a decade building up here. im so tired, ive been moving countries since i was 8 and i thought it would finally stop now.
my mom is starting to sell our stuff and when i say i dont want to move she just yells at me

what do i do? i could go to a homeless shelter or try to live with my boyfriend's parents but i need to have my cat, i cant leave her. also things are not going well with my boyfriend. i can imagine it wouldnt last long. i just want to cry and die

>wtf are you blabbering on about
>that pic is good
This pic is being recycled too fucking much, i've seen it like five times already
you posted it on minimum three occasions
There's an innumerable amount of menhera girls on gelbooru, the artist that made your dog girl still pumps them out at a constant pace.
>why? stimulant psychosis sent you there?
It's complicated but drugs weren't directly involved in any way, i was completely sane during my admission, i was pretty much just collecting paperwork to prove that i am in fact a perfectly functioning member of society, well that's the case for the first two mental wards, don't really want to talk about the last one, that's where i lost my passport.
>ig you cant really compare wards from europe to wards from ukraine
Yeah bitch is from the first world, they are different there. But aren't you from a spic shit hole yourself? I heard people move in to sweeden just to commit crime and get stationed in of their ridiculously well maintained prisons, although they usually get deported instead.
<tfw you gotta share a bed with the epileptic schizo and not the cute autistic girl
akhtually both men and women slept on the bunkbeds in the same room so i shared my bed with cute grils from time to time.
>ig their population must be denser in their natural habitat
Pretty much all the girls were either mentally deficient or just autistic af, no violent fits or plain annoyance like with men. Honestly the overcrowded mental ward is the worst place to be when you're a sperg, especially when you're the shy type. Madokanon would probably go totally nuts after visiting a turkish ward
I remember there was a guy that used to constantly shout the same fucking word over and over for hours until his throat begun to hurt, and he did that every single fucking day, the worst part is that i wasn't even allowed to beat the shit out of him because they would place me into a solitary confinement along with some bullshit diagnosis about bouts of violence, the nurses weren't allowed to do shit either because apparently he wasn't aggressive enough to warrant force.
>is that what theyre putting in the water supply?
Idk i still feel pretty violent, i think they put estrogen and fluorine in the water supply but estrogen is actually the primary wrath hormone.
>wtf is that how it works?
>depressants are actually just reverse stimulants and you can mix and match to counter the effects of one another?
You are surprisingly close, i could even complement you for your insight
stimulants are agonists (agonists release chemicals) of dopamine, usually also serotonin and adrenaline because almost all the dopamine releasing shit is very imprecise and results in a significant collateral damage. Serotonin causes hallucinations, pretty mild ones, usually just some funky geometry, it also slightly alters your thinking process which makes hallucinogen fags clap like a seal and think that they are le ascended very special boys and girls, high serotonin also results in a pretty insane sex drive. Low serotonin levels are associated with depression but apparently it's not always the case, lack of serotonin causes depression but not every depression is caused by that. Now high levels of dopamine are always correlated to schizophrenia, those two go hand in hand, it's impossible to separate them, schizophrenia is pretty much a fancy term for dopamine overload. Now schizophrenic brain is very different from my own, so the hallucinations i experience while smoking homemade salts are vastly different from the psychosis fits schizos go through. For example i barely get any recurring themes or scenarios, it's just my completely random and deranged thoughts coming into reality, and i am quite a well rounded person. Schizos always go back to their old episodes, just like autistic people focus on trains or planes schizos focus on CIA or illuminati.
Blocking dopamine receptors completely shuts down almost all hallucinations that humans may experience, including the ones caused by serotonin receptors, your brain pretty much shuts down as a whole, you don't have the mental capacity to imagine things anymore. The drugs that cockblock your receptors are called neuroleptics, they are antagonists not agonists. They usually cockblock both dopamine and serotonin, but sometimes they only block serotonin, the ones that block serotonin are usually used for neurotic fucks and complete dopamine shut down awaits schizos and the most violent ones.
If you use neuroleptics as a junkie that wants to have a "nope i am out" button in case shits go bad, i recommend seroquel and maybe an additional beta blocker to calm down your racing heart.
This shit is awful and repulsive, after you try it once you'll think very carefully about trying it again. They are also very expensive compared to the other meds. So most junkies never ever bother with planning out such drastic safety precautions, but they are the only reason i am alive and they are not.
You can also synthesize antipsychotics on your own, some are even in the cathinone family, but they are trickier than normal ones, i bothered a few times but pretty much just to jerk off my own ego and prove that i can, the end product is either not strong enough, or strong enough to put you into a coma for the entire week.
>depressants are actually just reverse stimulants
Pretty much yeah, stimulants activate receptors, depressants block them.
>and you can mix and match to counter the effects of one another?
No you can't, while you are on neuroleptics, stimulants DO NOT WORK, your receptors are completely cucked and it's physically impossible for you to feel happy. It's a one way ticket.
>is that why ppl mix alcohol with coffee? to turn it into water?
Alcohol and coffee affect different parts of your brain so they don't cancel out each other out, and their effects create quite a nice synergy.
>she is begging in euro, so prolly europe
Maybe she's begging in euro because there are no canadian dollars on paypal or she can only order the scales from ebay or whatever. But yeah she may be in europe, but the assisted suicide there only very recently became an option, and she's already getting admitted.
>i made the common mistake of assuming that english words make any fucking sense
Those are actually french terms, no one corrected them after a few fucking centuries of advancement.
>what if i have a bad case of wanting to be bullied by hot nurses? what would they use to fix me?
Simply waiting in a hospital line for a few hours is enough to off put anyone.
<i get really concentrated on getting rid of the blood in the shortest amount of time
>and now you understand the appeal of self harm
I think i kinda get it but i prefer to interfere with my wacky brain in the most direct manner possible

>i have discord friends and one telegram friend
Shit's grim
>also i have a boyfriend right now. he likes girly stuff so i gave him my skirt and panties and bras which he wears every day
Shit's fucked up
>he already wants to get married and have kids within the next couple years
wiggers have zero self-preservation instincts
>assisted suicide in netherlands
>its a very small chance though but im willing to take it
Bearing the kilograms of paperwork required for something like that is going to be infinitely more painful then putting a screwdriver inside of your ear and scrambling out the last tidbits of your brain.
>i lose all my therapists and therapy groups, all my irls, my boyfriend, and everything ive spent almost a decade building up here
That's a good thing, you can start anew from a slate that's a bit cleaner
>when i say i dont want to move she just yells at me
based mom doesn't listen to her parasite menhera daughter
>what do i do?
KYS?

>KYS?

told myself id never OD again because i can physically not swallow any more than 2 pills at once. but what if i do it one at a time? i just read that the clomipramine im taking is pretty deadly if overdosed on, thats why they wanted me at the psych ward when i started taking it. what if i just save it up for a couple weeks? id take like or or two per day to make sure side effects arent too bad. then i can od on clomipramine, olanzapine, birth control or smth, and whatever else we have. maybe that will work? my most serious OD was on olanzapine.

heres my mini plan.

it will take 6 weeks. exactly 6 weeks from now is 1 day before my bday. it will be a sunday night

until then, i am going to save all my olanzapine instead of throwing it away.
i will also start taking less and less clomipramine so i dont immediately suffer from side effects, but i can slowly save up more
ill keep taking birth control since i have lots of that
ill also take whatever else we have in house
whatever money i get, ill save up. forget the scale, im dying fat it seems.
using that money to buy alcohol to take the pills with. what do you recommend?

to end it all, that night before my bday i will go to our local park and do it all there. i dont want my mom nor my cat to see me

high chance of just vomitting it up
just burn coal or something

>told myself id never OD again because i can physically not swallow any more than 2 pills at once
Why od just fucking hang yourself
>but what if i do it one at a time?
You'll vomit again, this is what your body does to when it's poisoned, you need antiemetics if you want to prevent that, but they aren't a 100% guarantee that you won't vomit.
>i just read that the clomipramine im taking is pretty deadly if overdosed on
Are you retarded? You won't be able to pass out, this shit will keep you awake while you are convulsing and chocking up blood, putting a screwdriver inside of your ear is unironically less painful. You aren't american right? Go to a pharmacy and buy like five insulin syringes, shoot up as many as you can in a row, you'll still die in a horrible seizure but at least it will happen while you're unconscious.
>until then, i am going to save all my olanzapine instead of throwing it away.
olanzapine is a better choice to overdose on but don't forget antiemetics, i think insulin is going to be way better, but i honestly never tried.
>using that money to buy alcohol to take the pills with
Increases your chance of vomiting
>what do you recommend?
using a rope RIGHT NOW

>>83687
>what do i do
i doubt constantly being around other severely mentally ill people is doing you much good so splitting from family wouldnt be too bad. you could probably get financial help from the government if you try and get proper housing out of it maybe, ik someone else living there who does. if the homeless shelters there don't suck too much then they'd probably be your best bet until you can figure that out

P83661
where me at
inb4 you don't exist there lol
>should prolly look into that, doesnt seen very healthy to me
it happened when i was a pre-teen, i was much more fucked up
but still don't like the cuts lmao
>imagine being given the link and not even looking into it and just assooming instead smh
i was thinking about irc the protocol and commenting on how to make it safer lmao
>i think the smaller things just make the daily grind more bearable
yup, that's what i had in mind
>you something need more to do other than just maintaining the status quo to wanna get off your ass
she loves consooooming things, working for those hello kitty scales gonna get her off the ground, i'm sure of it lmao
(jk i'm not lol)
>zoomzooms really think that, huh?
it is what it is
both learning stuff, producing stuff and honing your skills are grindy self-repeating processes
unless you can fool around at least a bit, life could get pretty boring
it's never quite as boring for mentally ill people, but i think not as mentally ill people still would choose that option over the mental illness roflmao
>but if you abandon hope, there is nothing to be frustrated about
zoomzooms really think that, huh?
hahahahaha
>why even
>trying takes effort and why put effort in something you know is gonna suck?
me thinks people answer that question on their own
if she offs herself, then i'm okaying it lol
i'm just offering a pov that you can drive yourself out of a ditch where you wanna kys, like it's definitely possible, but whether she does that or not is a different question

P83681
>Having a long term tangible goal is the greatest cope of them all, enjoying the small things is great and all but it's only possible with the correct brain chemistry and proper parenting.
i tend to think that a "long term" goal is always more like a dream
like, tangibility over years or decades of effort? get outta here, if you have that much trust in the world and people around you, you don't need that cope in the first place lmao
i don't think i'm able to think more than 1-3 years ahead because it's assooooming too much. in fact, even 1 year may be too much assoooming, it depends on what you're trying to do
and like, for working towards goals you need some energy left, and if you spend it all reeeeeeeing at this reality you end up depressed lmao
>The fuck is ennui
the grind
it's actually a world in american, despite being a fancy one
i learned it from this vid
/watch?v=XYTa5xDhqpc
me smart

P83687
What happened to your dad?

>overdose
12% success rate.

P83686
gm
pls take a look at that post P83384 in case you missed it. responding isn't necessary lol

>i doubt constantly being around other severely mentally ill people is doing you much good so splitting from family wouldnt be too bad
Won't she stay in her mental ward echo chamber being around mentally ill people and doctors that are trying to literally fucking murder her?
>you could probably get financial help from the government
Yeah that's fucking netherlands, people who flip burgers there get more money in a month then turkish soldiers after a year of service.
>both learning stuff, producing stuff and honing your skills are grindy self-repeating processes
>unless you can fool around at least a bit, life could get pretty boring
This is literally peak human experience, i have no idea what can be more entertaining, besides the end product
>i tend to think that a "long term" goal is always more like a dream
emphasis on a "tangible" goal that you gradually get to, athletes and bodybuilders have cracked the code by working on their own bodies every single day.
>if you have that much trust in the world and people around you, you don't need that cope in the first place lmao
Yeah i probably don't, i am surprisingly optimistic even while sober. Can't really relate to the whiny niggaz here.
>i don't think i'm able to think more than 1-3 years ahead because it's assooooming too much
I am not talking about planning your life out, i am talking about working on a single fucking goal, no CEO grindsets and 5 year old USSR plans. You don't even need to assume the end results, you just plan out how you get to them
>even 1 year may be too much assoooming, it depends on what you're trying to do
I don't think that you need so much excessive long term planning unless you are climbing Everest.
>working towards goals you need some energy left
Food is free, sleeping is even cheaper
>i learned it from this vid
>watch?v=XYTa5xDhqpc
a fellow wh40k autismo here, took a while

P83661
Looks to me like OP has to be added to the academy.

>Resents faggot-chan
What deepest lore am I not aware of?

>>83699
>Won't she stay in her mental ward echo chamber
idk exactly how the homeless shelters in netherlands are. from what ive heard it'll probably just be a lot of third worlders
>people who flip burgers there
they dont even have to do that much

P83693

>insulin
i have no money
>just fucking hang yourself
survival instincts hold me back im a pussy
>you won't be able to pass out
i have memory loss from my worst OD so i dont remember it enough to worry about that


P83694

>you could probably get financial help from the government
my mom is financially responsible for me until im 21 so unless i live alone they can give me like grocery money at most
i cant live alone nor go to a homeless shelter because i cant lose my cat. i refuse to live without her


P83696

junkie that used my college savings, child support, and family heritage to buy drugs. i cut off contact with him. my sister still talks to him because when she was my age our family was still wealthy so she had it good. i only have bad memories of him though


P83697
i read through it, but i genuinely have no hope and zero motivation, sorry but thank you still

<Won't she stay in her mental ward echo chamber
>idk exactly how the homeless shelters in netherlands are
No no no, i am talking about actual mental wards, she wants to hop on to the whole assisted suicide thingie and it seems like moving into belgium will demolish her entire progress and cut connections with her beloved therapists.

P83703

the psych ward so far was the best place ive been sent to, since i dont really mind falling asleep to someones mental breakdown. but you're right, i really dont want to lose all my progress. lowkey i want to go back to the ward so my moms worried and has a reason to stay living here but id miss my cat too much

stfu

>i have no money
Bitch, your pills cost more than my monthly rent
And a lethal dose of insulin would cost you like 50 bucks tops, you're anorexic so you don't need all that much.
>i dont remember it enough to worry about that
There's a huge chance that you don't remember about it thanks only to the hospital stuff, don't roll your luck forever.
>they can give me like grocery money at most
insulin is cheap
>junkie that used my college savings, child support, and family heritage to buy drugs
Fucking based!

>>P83706

faggot

>What happened to your dad?

He's just drunk

>>83702
>cant lose my cat
oh well ig ur just gonna have to go along with your mom then
belgium sucks i hear. gl there

P83673

i dont get it...

P83713

what is gl?

good lua

P83707
>Bitch, your pills cost more than my monthly rent
free healthcare

>insulin is cheap
pay it then paypal.me/koantagore


P83715
good luck :>

konatagore*

>he did cheat on me with a man.
I see, so he actually is jb or at least a jboid after all lol jokes

>pay it then
tits of GTFO

P83738

id also love to have a rat. big long fat rat. very cute. my cat is small, almost a midget so the rat would almost be her size :3


the insulin idea is actually stuck in my head. thank you anons. prices i saw are 2,87 euro per 10 needles of 1ml. how many of these do you reckon id have to take? and how would the death process be? with or without alcohol? with or without the pills?

mahiron you crazy mf

P83684
>surprised u remember
tbf that was your peak
easier to remember that than your teaposts tbh

P83686
>i have discord friends and one telegram friend. i used to have an irl friend group but they stopped talking to me when i got too mentally ill.
pain
>also i have a boyfriend right now
ofc you do
>he likes girly stuff so i gave him my skirt and panties and bras which he wears every day
OwO hes a femboy?!?!?!?
>he did cheat on me with a 64 year old man
he is!!!
>he has severe anger issues
lmao is he also violently racist?
classic femboy
>if i tell him i dont want to date, he will cut himself and get drunk and do drugs. thats what he usually does whenever i change any plans.
epic toxic radioactive relationship you got going on there
>in an attempt to not look like jailbait, i got piercings and ct + dyed my hair black. i looked a bit more mature. i have black snake bite rings and a black septum piercing.
fucking hell
at least try to pretend you arent mentally defective
>red flag much?
yea
if i saw you outside id cross the street
>i only put on some makeup if im going out for the night, which happens very very rarely.
how often do you leave the house?
>i just want to be underweight again
really going for the quintessential menhera looks huh
>not knowing my exact weight is making me really stressed 24/7
why?
why are bitches to fixated on numbers?
are you autistic?
if you just wanna look like a broken girl, what does your exact weight matter?
dont you have a mirror?
if you figure out a way to look like a walking skeleton while still somehow weighting 60kg, isnt your goal achieved all the same?
idk sounds like you got psyopped tbh
>ill be so desperate for attention and affection that ill do that
k ill wait
by then ill prolly have my site up again so you can send them directly to me without having to whore yourself publicly
>except i cant chill because i dont have financial security or anything
oh yea ok now THAT is a real problem
the only reason im vibing is bc life is actually comfy
i might be lonely and 100% gonna die alone
but at least i get to eat tasty food everyday and sleep in a huge bed

P83687
>my mom has pretty severe paranoia
shit, so it runs in the family?
yea its over
you have no hope of getting better
>i lose all my therapists and therapy groups, all my irls, my boyfriend, and everything ive spent almost a decade building up here.
damn that sucks
and given your current state i doubt youre gonna rebuild anything after you move
if you even stay on the same place for long, that is
>i could go to a homeless shelter
depends if its as okay as the wards
>live with my boyfriend's parents
fuck no
he sounds insane
also youre basically stuck on that relationship or you have to live on the streets
might as well go straight for the shelter
tho i cant really imagine a tiny frail girl with broken mind and body fending for herself
idk, just go with your mom

P83689
>This pic is being recycled too fucking much, i've seen it like five times already
its a good pic
find me a better one and ill spam that instead
>you posted it on minimum three occasions
pff
you should have seen denpa during his prime
hed spam the exact same pic 20 times on the same day
>There's an innumerable amount of menhera girls on gelbooru
all trash
>the artist that made your dog girl still pumps them out at a constant pace
not the same vibe as that one
>don't really want to talk about the last one, that's where i lost my passport
is passport code for anal virginity?
>But aren't you from a spic shit hole yourself?
what ever gave you that idea?
>i shared my bed with cute grils
ok time to go insane
>Pretty much all the girls were either mentally deficient or just autistic af
just my type
>I remember there was a guy that used to constantly shout the same fucking word over and over for hours until his throat begun to hurt, and he did that every single fucking day
so its literally an imageboard but irl?
>estrogen is actually the primary wrath hormone
facts
>their effects create quite a nice synergy
that must be the real reason then
i cant imagine ppl going to party effectively sober
>only very recently became an option, and she's already getting admitted
what, you expected some sort of grace period?
kinda defeats the purpose of being passed
>Simply waiting in a hospital line for a few hours is enough to off put anyone.
unironically getting ballbusted instead of waiting among sickly old fucks sounds like a better experience
>I think i kinda get it but i prefer to interfere with my wacky brain in the most direct manner possible
fucking zoomers smh prefer to take synthetic shit instead of the natural treatment
>you can start anew from a slate that's a bit cleaner
nah that shit takes time and effort to restart
dying is easier
>what if i do it one at a time?
yea duh ofc its gonna work
not like you body is gonna digest and filter you blood in 5 seconds
how fast are you gonna do it?
>id take like or or two per day
lmfao that shit is never gonna work
youre just gonna damage your liver
>maybe that will work?
you underestimate how resilient the human body is
unless you use something that was specifically engineered to murdering ppl (a weapon), killing someone is actually p hard unless you get insanely lucky
and even then its prolly hella painful
so just jump off a building tbh

P83691
>heres my mini plan
>take a bunch of pill and hope to god i dont immediately puke them out after saying i cant down more than 1 at once
is this why women attempt suicide 3x more and yet die 3x less often than man? bc they are too retarded to come up with something that has a realistic chance of working?
keep it simple, stupid
holy shit if you wanna poison yourself then buy real poison
but like mahi is saying, just rope
the other times you failed were due to bad luck, if youd just get rid of your cat or hang yourself somewhere else it would have better chances of working

P83693
>five insulin syringes
>you'll still die in a horrible seizure but at least it will happen while you're unconscious
wait wtf
why does insulin do that?

P83699
>This is literally peak human experience, i have no idea what can be more entertaining, besides the end product
this but unironically
my favorite videogames are basically simulations of that
cdda for example
can you belive the fuckers are trying to nerf skill learning
i think its to force you to make use of multiple characters now that its more or less properly implemented
also for muh realism
but still, makes the game suck massive ass
i wanna be a mutant cyborg killing machine AND a tailor and blacksmith and hacker and mechanic and alchemist
>I am not talking about planning your life out, i am talking about working on a single fucking goal
yea something like spending 6 months writing a massive phd thesis about a game you played for less than a week

P83700
>Looks to me like OP has to be added to the academy.
too new
you need to earn your place in there
and looks like shes gonna die soon anyway
>What deepest lore am I not aware of?
i cooooould tell you my story, but you arent gonna tell me yours so nah
oversharing is a twoway street

P83702
>i have no money
go to a college campus and sell your pills
>survival instincts hold me back im a pussy
ask your bf to do it for you
im sure hed love to
>junkie that used my college savings, child support, and family heritage to buy drugs.
oof
yea it defly runs in the family
also no wonder your life sucks
most ppl here are actually completely hopeless like you
not much they can do for themselves, they are just fucked from birth
im p sure im the only one that had a decent shot at life and somehow i still fucked it up
oh well, no point in fretting over that
once its over its over

P83707
>a lethal dose of insulin would cost you like 50 bucks tops
holy shit i should go check the prices around here
who knew suicide could be so cheap and easy

P83718
>pay it then
damn bitch you sure like e-begging huh

P83742
look up LD50
do your own research, learn to use your atrophied brain

P83746
>i cooooould tell you my story, but you arent gonna tell me yours so nah
Instead of knowing the specifics, it's more like it's kind of difficult to believe you could even feel such a thing as "resentment".

P83746
>how often do you leave the house?
once every 2 or 3 days to either see my boyfriend or buy soy milk
once every 2 or 3 months if its an event like a concert or convention in which i do try makeup

>are you autistic?
therapists said i am so tested me but the test came back inconclusive. we'll never know.

>if you just wanna look like a broken girl, what does your exact weight matter?
maybe if i look like a small child again ill feel the same i did when i was little and clueless about the world

>but at least i get to eat tasty food everyday and sleep in a huge bed
im jealous

>if youd just get rid of your cat or hang yourself somewhere else it would have better chances of working
wanted to hang myself at some monkey rails in a childrens park but i wouldnt have the balls to jump down

>and looks like shes gonna die soon anyway
i really hope so, but then again you guys also thought id die last time. whats the academy?

>im sure hed love to
he will kill himself when he finds out im dead

>damn bitch you sure like e-begging huh
im a mentally ill teenage girl on an image board

P83749
>once every 2 or 3 months if its an event like a concert or convention
wow that often?
where do you even live? big city?
yea probably
it explains a lot
>inconclusive
if its not a flat NO, then you have autism
>maybe if i look like a small child again ill feel the same i did when i was little and clueless about the world
you know thats now how it works
stop pretending to be stupid
>im jealous
id fatten you up if you came live with me
but id eat you afterwards
>wanted to hang myself at some monkey rails in a childrens park but i wouldnt have the balls to jump down
fucking hell just let me strangle you then
>you guys also thought id die last time
i didnt
i knew you wouldnt have the balls then and i know you wont have the balls now
>whats the academy?
lurk and thou shall find
>im a mentally ill teenage girl on an image board
post feet and ill consider

P83751
im only seeing socks

>post feet and ill consider
my bare feet are easily recognisable and embarrasingly small.

>stimulants are agonists
>depressants are antagonists
i see
so stim make your brain release more shit while depressants shutdown your receptors
so you can nullify stims with deprs, but no the other way around
can you even OD on deprs or do you just go into a coma?
bc i imagine the ODing of stims is actually your brain sending too many signals to your organs and then shit like your heart getting all fucky and failing to keep you alive anymore
can you turn off your heart with deprs?

>can you turn off your heart with deprs?

you can. i was very close to it. "connected to machines to be kept alive", my moms words

>easily recognisable
what?
>embarrasingly small
more like insanely sexy
also the pic you posted is wrong
youre supposed to show off the soles

P83756

>more like insanely sexy
i dont think you get it. on a good day im a EU size 37.5 but usually 36-37. like my toes arent the sexy ones they look deformed they look like theyre missing a joint so it makes them look like beans.

>youre supposed to show off the soles
i barely shower once a week, do you think my soles would be nice and soft?

P83755
hows the trip?
>pic
also stop posting this whore, you have no idea how horny she makes me

>on a good day im a EU size 37.5 but usually 36-37.
wtf? since when do feet change sizes like that?
>look like beans
sounds like youre trying to describe cute small toes
the only ugly toes and the elongated ones
>i barely shower once a week, do you think my soles would be nice and soft?
so they are dirty and crusty? even better
stop teasing me you filthy whore, post those feet fr already

P83758

>also stop posting this whore, you have no idea how horny she makes me
^w^


P83759

>wtf? since when do feet change sizes like that?
i think it depends on the shoe type. because my feet are small compared to the rest of me, theyre not small everywhere. theyre more like squished. making them short, but the sides wider. so i have fat feet. length-wise, im a 36, and width-wise im a 37. :(

>so they are dirty and crusty? even better
oh

P83760
>^w^
trash
i prefer the cute empty eyes
>length-wise, im a 36, and width-wise im a 37.
i have no idea wtf youre blabbering about
im gonna need some illustrations to make sense

no hmph

>i saw are 2,87 euro per 10 needles of 1ml
Bitch, how many units?
>how many of these do you reckon id have to take?
Take all
>how would the death process be?
Don't worry it will be pretty enough to bury you inside of a glass coffin, you faint and then your heart does a break-dance spin. The problem is you can stay inside of a coma for a few days, and it's quite easy to get you out of it without severe complications, so you must die in a desolated place. Again, it's infinitely easier to just fucking rope.
>with or without alcohol?
Take alcohol beforehand if it helps you to get over the needles
>with or without the pills?
Pills won't help with dying from insulin and they will make everything way worse in case you stay alive. If you want to take them take only olanzapine without clomipramine
>given your current state i doubt youre gonna rebuild anything after you move
Yeah she should just end her suffering
>find me a better one and ill spam that instead
picrel i guess, but i am not sure about it since it doesn't fit the menhera archetype, it's just a random pic from my hard drive.
>is passport code for anal virginity?
Nah that one happened on a party
<But aren't you from a spic shit hole yourself?
>what ever gave you that idea?
No electric transportation and motherfucking iguanas instead of rats
>ok time to go insane
Never ever tell them that you want to kill yourself, if you say that it may be hard for them to let you out.
>i cant imagine ppl going to party effectively sober
Getting fucked up is the main reason normal people go to parties
>smh prefer to take synthetic shit instead of the natural treatment
You would prefer it too if you ever actually gave it a try
>dying is easier
Dying really is easier than almost anything else, but some hoes still struggle
>what if i do it one at a time?
>yea duh ofc its gonna work
>not like you body is gonna digest and filter you blood in 5 seconds
She should honestly just grind the pills into a powder and then drink it with water
<id take like or or two per day
>lmfao that shit is never gonna work
>youre just gonna damage your liver
You seem to be mistaken, she takes two a day instead of her usual dose, so she can stock up on pills. She's not trying to kill herself slowly.
>killing someone is actually p hard unless you get insanely lucky
You must be really lucky yourself if you actually believe that.
>so just jump off a building tbh
Do they have skyscrappers in netherlands?
<why does insulin do that?
>wtf no sugar in my blood
>wtf can't even produce my own from the stored fat or eaten carbs
>wtf joe biden pulls me down into his shadow realm because i wasted 1000$ worth of insulin
I am not sure why exactly you die, but your heart stops for some reason, no idea really.
>so stim make your brain release more shit while depressants shutdown your receptors
Exactly that, in that particular case with antidepressants, just depressants are a broad term. Alcohol is commonly labeled a depressant but it's akhtually a GABA and dopamine agonist. Although both of those get activated indirectly. Aktually some depressants increase the fun chem concentrations in certain areas of your brain so they are supposed to actually increase your overall levels of dopamine and serotonin, but it doesn't work like you would imagine it to.
>so you can nullify stims with deprs, but no the other way around
yep
>can you even OD on deprs or do you just go into a coma?
Lots of deprs are beta-blockers, if you didn't know those eventually stop your heart. Dying from the lack of dopamine is really really hard but it's also possible.
In case with clomipramine it's so lethal because it's a beta blocker and a cholinergic too.
>bc i imagine the ODing of stims is actually your brain sending too many signals to your organs and then shit like your heart getting all fucky and failing to keep you alive anymore
Overdosing on stims is nearly impossible but when it happens you die from a stroke induced brain aneurysm, although most people don't die and remain alive as machine supported vegetables. Getting a heart attack from cathinones and shit is really really hard, you're more likely to catch one from coffee, i think we already talked about that.
>easily recognisable
Feet doxx

P83765

>Bitch, how many units?
wym,,

>Take all
just 10ml? wouldnt i have to buy like 50 euro of these

>so you must die in a desolated place
so what if i run away somewhere? theres lots of woods here, i can just bike and go inside one. how long would it take for my heart to stop?

>Again, it's infinitely easier to just fucking rope.
im a pussy. i did want to buy a jumping rope because those are good and not suspicious to have. but no money and no guts to do it

>Do they have skyscrappers in netherlands?
only in the very big cities. i have looked into all big buildings that you can freely go in. and theres like, none. all the tall buildings are either offices or apartments that you need a pass to enter

P83699
>This is literally peak human experience, i have no idea what can be more entertaining
there are other entertaining things to enjoy in life but yea, it is pretty nice if you know how to enjoy it. the thing is, if you know how, you wouldn't be like that gurl
but yea kinda sad (or ironic lol) that rich privileged kids like her give up on life before even starting. i mean, i guess she is kinda privileged, there are like millions of people who have it worse, who are literally sick, also old and ugly but they keep on and are even able to enjoy it lol
>emphasis on a "tangible" goal that you gradually get to
whoooops your "tangible goal" fell apart just now, your reaction? that girl decided to flip out and she is not the only one who would react like that kek
i suppose if you are from ukraine this isn't the question for you, but the point was that having a goal alone won't help you, you need an entire skillset on setting up goals, having correct attitudes for things and basically not be fucking stupid lmao
>i am talking about working on a single fucking goal
well i personally struggled with keeping a consistent daily ritual for life pretty much, but i am kinda trashcan so whatever
the point is again, having a goal alone won't help lmao
>you just plan out how you get to them
that suddenly becomes much less tangible
also stuff will go wrong, do you have a plan for everything?
sorry for dissing your advice, i just thing it isn't good at all lol
>Food is free, sleeping is even cheaper
wth is this take, i don't even know lmao

P83702
ah don't be sorry
the point is kinda as follows: you will get the hope and motivation if you are able to take it easy and live in a present day. or maybe you won't, but it could help lmao. just try to not think about past or future for like a month or two, if you can't control your thoughts, practice meditation and thought-stopping, it kinda works. the reality and you yourself are tricky things and you are in the best position to fix yourself, not the doctors, they don't know shit lol
but anyway yea, no pressure, if you wanna kys then by all means do it, i'm not your bf and i won't shed a tear. i could ask you to stick around in this world so we can shitpost together more but honestly i have enough mentally ill frens to shitpost with lol and i am not that greedy

P83713
♥
btw nanos you lied to me
faggotchan does post something else other than tea blog lmao

P83746
>i wanna be a mutant cyborg killing machine AND a tailor and blacksmith and hacker and mechanic and alchemist
yea but in reality you can't do that
this world seems to be encouraging taking a niche within a niche within a niche and grind it into perfection
then some moron in power will fuck everything up anyway and you might have to start over kek
>yea something like spending 6 months writing a massive phd thesis about a game you played for less than a week
ok that does sound better lol
might do something like that, i'm a bookworm-ish kinda guy anyway
>you need to earn your place in there
pls add writings with names next to portraits because i don't recognize people there kek

P83751
*cooms to pic*
jk i really didn't but thought it would be funny to say :3

>wym
you don't even know how insulin is measured wtf
what if a diabetic starts dying in front of you?
yeah i am going to take pictures too
>just 10ml? wouldnt i have to buy like 50 euro of these
I don't know how the fuck are you doing math, you said you can buy ten needles of 1ml for 2 and a half euros, doesn't that mean that you get 10ml solutions of god knows how many insulin units? or do you have to buy each syringe separately? Even if that's the case wouldn't it cost like 25 euros?
>so what if i run away somewhere? theres lots of woods here
that would be cool
>how long would it take for my heart to stop?
should be like three or four days maximum, but those are very rare occasions
>i did want to buy a jumping rope
>but no money and no guts to do it
aren't jumping ropes piss cheap? i used to steal them from the school gym, you can hang yourself on rubber gloves tied together if you get really creative about it.
>i have looked into all big buildings that you can freely go in. and theres like, none.
>all the tall buildings are either offices or apartments that you need a pass to enter
You need a pass to enter apartments?
P83765
btw wrong pic

P83766
why are there russian runes, are you a russian expat on top of everything?

P83605
>bandages
Or you can use gauze dressing.
I don't hurt myself often so excuse if my insight is irrelevant.
But those things come in large rolls.
Washable. (I think)
Cheap. (I think)
>just you wait until denpa wakes up
So where is he anyways?
>shortstack
You can't pull that off irl.
Take the adult loli pill.
Small.
Legal.
Huggable.
Easy to lift.
Completely under your control.
>fuck off
>i dont wanna having to align shit and draw arrows and whatnot
Whether or not you want it I will remake whatever you do in GIMP afterward.
Shiver under my evil plot.
MUHAHAHA
>i think ill use graphviz
Go ahead then.
Also please put labels under the images.
I don't a separate guide to figure out which avatar is whom.

>denpa this
>denpa that
>implying it matters
>you must have an identity to post here
Should I take up an avatar and name to use or what?
I don't know about that.
Most likely won't even post outside of this thread.

P83661
>draft
Looking nice.

P83682
>amorphous blob
Might as well get a dead pig at that point.
Checks out all the boxes.
Put it in your bed.
Close your eyes.
Won't even notice it isn't your waifu next to you.

P83686
>i have discord friends and one telegram friend.
Shit's rough, I see.
Well you finished HS so there isn't a clear option to make friends now.
Aren't there socializing groups in your area or something similar?
It probably full of autists or normies. But at least the psychological need is "taken care off" until you get into a better position.
>very cute. he did cheat on me with a 64 year old man.
I see.
A very special kind of relationship you two have.
How did you even meet him?
Better yet. How did you stay with him?
Is it just pity?

>red flag much?
Red flags. Sure.
Looking bad? Depends.
You don't seem to take care of yourself.
So probably yes.
>i just want to be underweight again
Why?
You will never a real child again.
You will only be anorexic.

>junkie that used my college savings, child support, and family heritage to buy drugs.
I see.
It's genetic.

P83694
>i doubt constantly being around other severely mentally ill people is doing you much good
That includes this place as well.
No reply so far opposed her suicide.
Also yes. If she's in the Netherlands just cling onto daddy government for your dear life.

P83749
>once every 2 or 3 days
I hear the Netherlands is very bicycle focused.
Why not take in fresh air some more?
Spring is here.
Your body is hardwired to like that.
I think.
Some more fresh air wouldn't hurt now would it?
If you live in some more rural area you can even go stargazing.
You can look up when the ISS will pass or when will comets come.
Buy a telescope and snap images of the Moon Mars Jupiter etc.
I am just projecting my autism am I not?

P83751
For a second I thought we had the same socks.
Also what's up with the colorful stars?
Maybe I was right to recommend stargazing.
At least having some sort of hobby will give you goals.
>easily recognisable
We can already see the shape from the image you posted.
P83757
>do you think my soles would be nice and soft?
Then just shower once before the image.
Maybe use one of those Instagram filters.
By the way.
How did you find your way back onto lpjs?

>I don't a separate guide
I don't WANT a separate guide ...

>yea kinda sad (or ironic lol) that rich privileged kids like her give up on life before even starting
Bitch lives in fucking netherlands, she can legally whore herself out for cocaine but no she chooses to date violently racist femboys and choke on neuroleptics.
>whoooops your "tangible goal" fell apart just now, your reaction?
What the fuck are you talking about? In that hypothetical situation, i would move onto a different goal because there's always an excess of goals and not enough time to accomplish them all
But so far a war couldn't stop me, doubt that the second coming of Christ will
>having a goal alone won't help lmao
Yeah obviously you can't just dream away, if you keep stuffing yourself with kilograms of antidepressants every single day it gets so bad you can't even properly kill yourself or even take a fucking shower. No hope for achieving anything substantial
>also stuff will go wrong
ofc
>do you have a plan for everything?
Do i need to?
If shit goes wrong i correct it or try to find an alternative way, if it's impossible i just stop.
>i just thing it isn't good at all lol
Because you're a goal'less pussy and the thought of working on something scares the shit out of you. Get yourself a good ass goal.
<Food is free, sleeping is even cheaper
>wth is this take, i don't even know lmao
I don't even know what to say, food is literally free, sleeping is also fucking free, what do i need to elaborate? Are those two not enough for accumulating energy?
>why are there russian runes
Because this badly cropped picture has a russian origin
>you a russian expat on top of everything?
Doubt that.

>Should I take up an avatar and name to use or what?
Not so soon
>No reply so far opposed her suicide.
I mean, even her psychiatrists don't seem to oppose suicide, you can tell she's fucked simply by reading this thread i can't even imagine how much menhera energy radiates from her irl

P83773
>Most likely won't even post outside of this thread.
the heck? did you just confess you came here for the circlejerk but won't even assume an identity? roflmao
<i have discord friends and one telegram friend.
>Shit's rough, I see.
tbh i'm kinda sames lol
except i'm much older but less mentally ill i guess
>No reply so far opposed her suicide.
it's kinda a matter of principle for me
i cannot lie about caring for people i just met online, and even though i suppose one could assume a humanist stance and make an argument for caring about everyone, there is still a matter of priorities. she is being cared for by professionals even, it's not like she is completely on her own having only ljs helping her to deal
i also take a matter of consent rather seriously. if it is her decision, i will accept it. after all, if she cannot make her own decisions, she cannot learn imo
but yea, overall i oppose suicide in general as it's a pretty stupid decision, especially in yurop i guess. she probably could become a welfare queen at this point and stop begging for gibs from online groomers lmao

P83768

>you don't even know how insulin is measured wtf
yeah;;

>or do you have to buy each syringe separately
no its 2,60 euro for a pack of 10. each syringe is 1ml

>should be like three or four days maximum, but those are very rare occasions
doubt i can go missing for that long but i think i can do 2 days if i get over my fear of bugs and go deep in the woods. i was thinking the woods in the area of my psych ward. its in private property kinda, and some areas are used for walking dogs, but like 50% of it is just trees and nothing else, no paths or anything

>You need a pass to enter apartments?
yeah all the doors are like electronic ones you need a pass or card of some sorts


P83769

>why are there russian runes, are you a russian expat on top of everything?
as much as id like to, i dont speak russian. i like that specific manga and i was looking for it but only found in russian at the time


P83773

>Aren't there socializing groups in your area or something similar?
there are groups but i dont join them. most ive done is group therapy. went terribly.

>How did you even meet him?
long story short. i had this small friend group at school with like 2 other guys and occasionally some others. i met them bc one of the guys is a childhood friend that previously had a crush on me. so i get close to his friend and we become a friend group. said friend is always talking about this super cool friend he has that cuts himself and is super mentally ill like me and suggests me meet up. the three of us meet up at that cool friends house and thats how i met him. we were both drunk so got close really fast the second we saw each others scars. tried to have sex that night too but it didnt fit in..embarrassing.
that friend group has now ghosted me. turns out the other friend also had a crush on me. kinda rude that id fuck his bestie. its my fault

>Better yet. How did you stay with him?
hot mentally ill guy thats into metal and cuts himself and has 5 cats and is also poor? hes just like me! let me get super attached to him.

>You will only be anorexic.
thats good enough. i miss being 40kg. but my goal is 35kg, and ultimately death by starvation/anorexia if i do survive all my attempts

>That includes this place as well.
i dont function well around normal people because of autism. i am very open about my mental health and my life and i dont have a filter. so when im just talking about how my day went or how im doing, people think im traumadumping and get pissed off by me. or worse, they get all triggered. so instead i talk to fellow retards. even when i vent on image boards, 50% of the replies are genuine advice and 50% are "kys show tits gtfo". i really like that. im tired of hearing "it gets better"

>Why not take in fresh air some more?
well im fairly active. wherever i go i go by bike back and forth. ive gone stargazing on a mini hill. friend tried to get super close to me so it was awkward. dont really wanna return. also its like over 1 hour of biking away and super cold

>Also what's up with the colorful stars?
thats my ceiling, its those that light up in the dark!!

>Then just shower once before the image.
i also have to remove all the hardened dead skin whatever you call that

>How did you find your way back onto lpjs?
im gonna be honest i have no idea what lpjs stands for i was just looking for nanochan and i found the link to here


P83775

>whore herself out
i cant, im genuinely kinda ugly. ugly body, scars everywhere, portuguese genetics that make me have to shave every couple hours which i dont do, lots of tics that are ugly. also lopsided face. doc thinks i was dropped as a baby (i was but i didnt tell him that. twice)

P83775
>In that hypothetical situation, i would move onto a different goal because there's always an excess of goals and not enough time to accomplish them all
okay at this point, again, it doesn't sound as tangible or even as long-term even
but you do you lol
>Do i need to?
for everything under the sun? probably not
do you need something that works? likely yes ;)
>Because you're a goal'less pussy and the thought of working on something scares the shit out of you
i tried working, it sucks
i just want to sleep forever lmao
>I don't even know what to say, food is literally free, sleeping is also fucking free
having shelter or food is generally not "free", not in my country at least
>Are those two not enough for accumulating energy?
the point i was making there is that you could lose all that energy because being mentally ill
tho on the other hand she still has the energy to attention whore on ljs so i guess not all is lost

P83775
>image
Just like my mongolian paintings
>福笑い
Both of Bocchi's fortune and laughter seem to be gone when looking at the insanity.

>picrel
thats just an animebitch chilling
>No electric transportation
comon anon, we only got electricity in here this century and half the country is still in the dark ages
have some patience, well get there by 2050
at least thats what the UN claims
you trust the honorable blue helmets, dont you?
>motherfucking iguanas instead of rats
lmao thats what you get for living near europe
>She should honestly just grind the pills into a powder and then drink it with water
this but unironically
>You must be really lucky yourself if you actually believe that.
i came close to dying a few times and i always came out on top
so yea
also maybe this is why this new generation is so fucking bitch
they never had any near death experiences
that shit builds character
once you realize youre basically unkillable its hard not to be comically optimistic and confident
i think kids are so fucking anxious all the time bc they think they are 1 wrong step away from death
in reality its like 12 wrongs step in a row
just like in cdda woahhhh *o*
>I am not sure why exactly you die, but your heart stops for some reason, no idea really.
alchemy really is fucky
>GABA
who tf is gaba
gay anthropomorphic bestial animal?

>i did want to buy a jumping rope because those are good and not suspicious to have.
what?
why would it be suspicious to have rope?
i have like 5 different types in here
one i made myself
well ig if youre a useless deadweight neet it can be kinda sus to have something that implies youre gonna do something productive with

>rich privileged kids like her
sounds like she is poor and that mental illness runs in the family tbh
>i guess she is kinda privileged, there are like millions of people who have it worse
ig unless youre an amputee with chronic diseases on all your organs whos starving to death everyday then youre privileged
i wish you liberals would understand that saying everyone is privileged makes the word completely meaningless
>and basically not be fucking stupid
for most ppl, thats the hard part
>that suddenly becomes much less tangible
whats with this tangibility fetish?
>also stuff will go wrong, do you have a plan for everything?
<planning for stuff
lol
lmao
>this world seems to be encouraging taking a niche within a niche within a niche and grind it into perfection
ik but i dont buy this jewish meme
im a hacker who knows how to sew
>might do something like that, i'm a bookworm-ish kinda guy anyway
it needs an attention span
thats where ppl like you struggle
>pls add writings with names next to portraits
this is beyond newfaggotry
>lol
>lol
>lmao
>lmao
>lol
>lmao
>lmao
>lol
>lol
>lmao
>kek
>lol
>kek
>kek
why are you laughing on every sentence?
nothing you say is funny
do you have braindamage?

>btw wrong pic
even worse
this pic is ugly
its 2 girls doing insane shit
i prefer the other one bc the girl is just being cute but just from the way she looks you can tell she is insane

>gauze dressing
>those things come in large rolls
huh?
its bandages that come in rolls
gauze comes in small packages with 10 rectangles
>Washable
nope
theyre tiny and thin, youre gonna tear it after a couple of washes
at least with bandages you can fold them to make them thicker and less likely to rip
>insight is irrelevant
is it
>So where is he anyways?
he retired
prefers to larp as a vampire on other threads instead
i swear, its like he gets cringer and cringer every passing day
>Small.
>Legal.
>Huggable.
>Easy to lift.
>Completely under your control.
yea thats the stuff
i need a wife that i can carry under my arm like luggage
>Whether or not you want it I will remake whatever you do in GIMP afterward.
(x) doubt
>Also please put labels under the images.
lurk moar fagit
>Should I take up an avatar and name to use or what?
yes
the standard nano avatar family is madoka girls
but madoka and that bitch uhhhh the gloomy one with dio's power
yk who i mean
theyre already taken
>No reply so far opposed her suicide.
where the fuck do you think you are?
if she wanted lectures on why SuIcIdE BaD shed go to reddit
>lpjs
lol

>did you just confess you came here for the circlejerk
the first step of this trannification is completed
>i cannot lie about caring for people i just met online
based and redpilled
yea strangers online are worthless
>one could assume a humanist stance and make an argument for caring about everyone
bruh that shit is cringe and also bluepilled asfuckkkk
aint nobody got the emotional capacity to care about everybody in the entire world at once
get fucking real
i was gonna rant about this, but i care so little i cant be arsed to
and normally im down to rant about anything
this is how insignificant this shit is

>yeah all the doors are like electronic ones you need a pass or card of some sorts
ah, the joys of post-industrialization
good thing this bullshit hasnt caught up here yet
i can go wherever i want
and i only got kicked out once
>we were both drunk so got close really fast the second we saw each others scars. tried to have sex that night too
thanks for reminding me that AWALT
>that friend group has now ghosted me
based
>its my fault
at least youre able to recognize that
>even when i vent on image boards, 50% of the replies are genuine advice and 50% are "kys show tits gtfo". i really like that. im tired of hearing "it gets better"
yea thats the appeal of places like this
ppl can go full unfiltered
all that lip service to make others feel better is cute, but god dammit it gets annoying fast
sometimes you just wanna be told how it is without the kiddy gloves, but normalniggers are too domesticated to deliver
>i also have to remove all the hardened dead skin whatever you call that
calluses?
ykw? nvfm
your severe body body dysmorphia is annoying
<hurrr i cant show feet cuz dis n dat
fine then, keep your dirty paws to yourself
youre literally gonna kys, what do you care if youre ugly
at least keep some pics of you on display for eternity so ppl remember you
but given the sheer amount of drugs you take i can only imagine how damaged your internal organs are and how this reflects on the state of your skin
>im genuinely kinda ugly. ugly body, scars everywhere, portuguese genetics that make me have to shave every couple hours which i dont do, lots of tics that are ugly. also lopsided face.
just work on a glory hole or something smh
>doc thinks i was dropped as a baby
holy shit lmfao
>i was but i didnt tell him that. twice
pffff hahahahaha
if this is larp, its hilarious
if its not, its hilarious
imagine being dropped twice
imagine all the braindamage
yea ok it truly is fucking over for you
as if your family heritage wasnt bad enough
like damn girl
the more you talk the bleaker your situation looks
how did you even manage to survive so far?

>okay at this point, again, it doesn't sound as tangible or even as long-term even
at this point ig youre just pretending to be retarded
or you really are too dumb to understand
>i just want to sleep forever
there are some pill that could help you with that
>having shelter or food is generally not "free", not in my country at least
skill issue then

btw
>There's an innumerable amount of menhera girls on gelbooru, the artist that made your dog girl still pumps them out at a constant pace.
yea no
i looked for him and the closest to menhera he makes is his neet waifu
tho he does occasionally make a funny meme with the doggirl

btw
>tried to have sex that night too but it didnt fit in..embarrassing.
damn, big dick femboy?
would you be mad if i cucked you?
you forgave him once, you can do it again
lend him your clothes this time, i promise ill only stain them a little
how hungry is his boyhole btw?

P83796
>sounds like she is poor and that mental illness runs in the family tbh
1 billion indians could be as fucked as her but not have access to mental healthcare at all
>i wish you liberals would understand that saying everyone is privileged makes the word completely meaningless
life would be much simpler if i was a liberal
unlike them, i am a decent person and don't try to genocide populations hehe
well tbh calling somebody privileged ain't good mental help lol but the point kinda stands - i wouldn't want to get in her shoes but there clearly are worse mental cases and her being doted on clearly got her there in the first place
okay that take still kinda sucks - well i could concur that i don't know shit, i guess that's fair lol. understanding my point in detail is essentially adopting a masochist pov - it's not that she is fucked, the world itself is fucked and you either adapt somehow, or you suffer i guess. great suffering could twist your mind to the worse degree than hers
>whats with this tangibility fetish?
dunno, it's the other anon's point of having a tangible goal
tho generally a lot of self-help anti-procrastinating guides advise you to have clear understandable goals for example, it's kinda logical that you will do something only when you know what to do
my advice is mostly about chilling
>im a hacker who knows how to sew
sewing ain't that big a deal but yea it is useful
>it needs an attention span
i don't give up on things
i just postpone
god my mind is so fucked hehe
>this is beyond newfaggotry
do it pwease
>why are you laughing on every sentence?
well not on every sentence but did you miss the part of me being mentally ill? that's a part of it, like it or leave it ;q
>how did you even manage to survive so far?
tbh the more information she gives out the more one could assume she is kinda sorta decently adjusted. if you omit the suicide attempts, she is almost normal, like she has friends, family (even if a bit disfunctional), hobbies, she is able to be humble and laugh at herself, she genuinely feels like a somewhat decent human bean. like, one could argue some of the so-called "normal people" should be institutialized like her to fix their loose screws kek
>or you really are too dumb to understand
what's there to understand? if you switch your goals because you failed your planning, you basically are stupid and have wasted your time
that guy was talking about long-term tangible goals which hypothetically had to be abandoned
kek, calling me stupid
hmph
>skill issue then
even after acquiring skills to live in the wild, it wouldn't be completely "free" lol
but arguing about whether or not one can get food and shelter "for free" wasn't the point even
what do you even want to say to me? jeez ppl, talking about stupid

P83301

couldnt believe that i have read replies written by hikari for the fist time. Been curious for over a year who hikari is....

sorry for not replying for a while

my mom and her bf broke up and he packed up and left. have to give him my whole pc and setup because he gave it to me years ago but wants it back now. so i lost access to most games i played and digital art. im on my laptop now and its a good gaming one bc thats what i needed when i was in college so at least i can still run genshin or stream my ps4 if i play ds3 or something? but i was starting ds1 and other games on the pc. rip! he also took the car. mom lost her past 5 jobs and i cant get a job either but she refuses to ask the government for help because she "wont become those animals that get money from the government" so now im not sure how we are going to pay rent, much less move to belgium. we might get evicted, cant even afford food now. send me insulin anons?

>1 billion indians could be as fucked as her but not have access to mental healthcare at all
>indians
ummmm... who cares???
>self-help anti-procrastinating guides
those scams made by mentally sound ppl who think they can get fuckups like us to function?
>do it pwease
ok done
but only bc the pic you posted is cute
>me being mentally ill? that's a part of it
ic ic
i hope when i finally lose my mind i become just like you fr
if i ever went insane, i always wanted to be the laugher kind, not the screamer kind
so i hope i become just like the joker, he is literally me
>the more information she gives out the more one could assume she is kinda sorta decently adjusted
for her situation maybe
>what's there to understand? if you switch your goals because you failed your planning, you basically are stupid and have wasted your time
denser than lead
greeks have predicted your stupidity 2000 years ago
look up meno's paradox
>kek, calling me stupid
>hmph
its ok, daddy likes dummy

>my mom and her bf broke up and he packed up and left
how was the fight?
>have to give him my whole pc and setup because he gave it to me years ago but wants it back now
ok now THIS is valid grounds for suicide
you cant just separate a gamer from its pc, its against god's commandments
>now im not sure how we are going to pay rent, much less move to belgium. we might get evicted, cant even afford food now
sorry it had to end like this, but you had a good run
rip

P83867

>how was the fight?
it was just my moms usual paranoia meltdown. turns out they had broken up days prior but then she kicked him out yesterday (yknow, out of the apt that HE pays)

>you cant just separate a gamer from its pc, its against god's commandments
well he did give it to me but technically it was originally his pc. he also gave me all his WoW stuff but bc i only got to lvl 20 and dont wanna pay for more i ended up not using it so i think its somewhere in the basement but i have no clue and now he wants it all back so i feel bad

>sorry it had to end like this, but you had a good run
my telegram best friend is offering to save up and buy me a setup and honestly hes doing gods work for me. yesterday he helped me buy food cause we couldnt afford it. now he wants to pay almost 2k for a setup? he says its because he likes talking to me but i have no idea how id pay back i might as well go live with him hes so nice :(

P83865
>gamer laptop
i giggle every tiem
but that may be because of the braindamage, tehe~

P83867
>ummmm... who cares???
exactly. dont see why ppl should care about op either but apparently nl the country do
tho to be fair caring about other ppl well-being is at least a bit logical, they might lose their shit and murder you randomly or just catch some meme cough and like half the population dies because nobody cares. then there are corpses everywhere and even more disease. ah, i love black death~
*shoots a rat*
yum!
>those scams made by mentally sound ppl who think they can get fuckups like us to function?
those are not helpful to mentally ill at all, yes, but some useful knowledge can still be had i guess
>ok done
thank you for bringing your site up i found that page with characters lol
also, armenia, really?
>the laugher kind
i think it's kinda like it is for me tbh fr
like if you see me use excessive amount of emoticons and lovebombing that means i'm not being as mentally sound at that particular moment
i dunno if i have always been like that or i learned to express my psychosis as a genki over-the-top anime girl from anime girls
>look up meno's paradox
le sigh
you know what? i don't even want to argue about that, you may take your win kek
do you want a reward?

>do you want a reward?
yea
post feet

P83872
sure hehe

<you don't even know how insulin is measured wtf
>yeah;;
There are units, IU, insulin units. Most syringes have 50 units loaded, biggest ones have 100, sometimes they are sold in ampules instead of syringes but that's not your case. You'd want minimum 400 units getting shot into your bloodstream, i assume that's way above lethal for someone with your complexion. Don't eat or drink anything the day you die, being malnourished obviously helps with the dying part, sugar is especially bad.
>no its 2,60 euro for a pack of 10. each syringe is 1ml
If each syringe is 50 units you should take pretty much every single one, personally i would either buy ampules or empty the syringes into two 5ml ones, because poking yourself ten times in a row seems like too much. 5ml syringes are pretty much free they lie on the ground everywhere i go, they come with HIV and hepatitis supplements but you are dying anyway.
>doubt i can go missing for that long but i think i can do 2 days
I wonder how the rescue squad will triangulate your ass.
>yeah all the doors are like electronic ones you need a pass or card of some sorts
Are there those funny electromagnetic locks? You can open those by just pulling on them really hard. They also automatically unlock when electricity is out but i guess that's hard to pull off because your weak ass ain't getting twenty stores up without a lift.
>i was thinking the woods in the area of my psych ward
Your wards are also innawoods? Didn't know it was an international trend, are the roads also utterly fucked, or do you have proper asphalt in 1st world yuropa?
>as much as id like to, i dont speak russian
Figures, if you could read russian literature you would have killed yourself by now.
>most ive done is group therapy
>went terribly
Who the fuck thought that placing 10 bpd whores in the same room could lead to a positive outcome?
>kinda rude that id fuck his bestie
Fuck both of them, sharing is caring
>i dont function well around normal people because of autism
Nigga, it was "i am not sure if i actually have autism the test's results were inconclusive" just a few posts ago
>i am very open and i dont have a filter
I think that's... not what autism is.
>well im fairly active
Every single motherfucker in existence spews this shit after circling around his block few times a week.
thats my ceiling, its those that light up in the dark!!
I used have glownigger wallpapers too, they are really comfortable because you don't bump into the walls whenever you wake up to piss in the middle of a night.
>i cant, im genuinely kinda ugly
don't worry the bar is low because cocaine is cheap

>it doesn't sound as tangible or even as long-term even
even steven nigga, we aren't even discussing anything tangible, we bitch about abstract concepts known as "tangible goals" i have no idea what kind of shit have you made up in your head with your deranged prejudices that rile up against following goals but it seems like you're really bad at setting up said goals, so yeah, skill issue.
>do you need something that works? likely yes
I don't need a fucking step by step illustrated instruction for a plan, all that i need to is to set a goal and think for six and a half seconds is it physically possible or not, if it is possible then it's settled and the plan is pretty much already in action.
Are you one of those motherfuckers that scheme grocery shopping routes so you don't have to walk past an isle more than once?
>i just want to sleep forever lmao
Consider taking insulin.
>having shelter or food is generally not "free", not in my country at least
Well i am a welfare queen sitting on on 40kg's of humanitarian aid boxes, envy in silence.
>the point i was making there is that you could lose all that energy because being mentally ill
I think at this point you're physically ill.

>have some patience, well get there by 2050
tbf 80% of all the electric transport in uran was made in the past century by the red and yellow guys.
>i came close to dying a few times and i always came out on top
I always came out on top out of sheer luck bordering on quantum immortality, but people around me continue to drop like flies.
>once you realize youre basically unkillable its hard not to be comically optimistic and confident
I think you need to be comically optimistic and confident to conclude that you're a fucking immortal protagonist of planet earth. The shamanistic insights i got while being higher than the ceiling continue to remind me about that but it all fades away when i sober up
>gay anthropomorphic bestial animal?
The pic is hilarious btw
>why would it be suspicious to have rope?
Have you forgot about an entire fucking paragraph where she describes her appearance, any cashier is going to get sirens blasting in his head when she makes an appearance.
>sounds like she is poor and that mental illness runs in the family tbh
She is poor, but lets not forget where she lives, she's not Uranian poor, she gets over 500$ worth of pills every single month and she throws half of them away, here we don't even have any mental health BS with force feeding ppl kilograms of pills, we only gift aminasin to the most aggressive and hilarious fuck ups that truly deserve it. Your only way of getting a prescription for antidepressants is getting an appointment with a paid professional. And after you pass it (by bribing everyone) you have to buy all the pills you want on your own.
>ig unless youre an amputee with chronic diseases on all your organs whos starving to death everyday then youre privileged
Lets not forget about the white cisgender male privilege
>i need a wife that i can carry under my arm like luggage
pic very related
This guy also draws russian soldiers getting raped, he's into some really weird shit.
>doc thinks i was dropped as a baby
>holy shit lmfao
>i was but i didnt tell him that. twice
>imagine being dropped twice
>imagine all the braindamage
Is it really that bad? I got dropped as a kid but i don't think i was all that different from the rest.
>1 billion indians could be as fucked as her but not have access to mental healthcare at all
I think all the "care" she got only made it even worse, bitch can't even kill herself without hand holding.
>enerally a lot of self-help anti-procrastinating guides advise you to have clear understandable goals
You read those?
>i don't give up on things
>i just postpone
This is what a lack of golussy does to a mf
>if you switch your goals because you failed your planning
Who said anything about abandoning your goal because you failed your planning, if you fail your plan you don't give up on the goal you just construct a new one. Unless you loose a limb or get into prison and the goal becomes unreachable then yeah, you're done. If you've placed yourself an impossible goal and only realized that after years of working on it you should try to recount all your chromosomes.
>you basically are stupid and have wasted your time
Better to waste your time just chilling? If you don't enjoy the process of committing to your goal maybe you should just buy insulin and chill forever.
>kek, calling me stupid
Don't get too mad, that's just a part of lpjs experience
>even after acquiring skills to live in the wild, it wouldn't be completely "free" lol
We were talking about free beer, not free as in freedom
>what do you even want to say to me?
Currently i want to shout lots of personal insults, but at that particular moment i was trying to explain that energy is free and it is easy to accumulate.

>gaming laptop
How hot can it get?
>i can still run genshin or stream my ps4
This bitch doesn't seem poor at all!
>cant even afford food now
Nice, see, having a goal sure helps, it's way easier to starve yourself when you have a weight goal.
>send me insulin anons?
It's literal pocket change, can't you suck dick for those two euros?
>look up meno's paradox
2 lazy to look this shit up, wassat?
>my telegram best friend is offering to save up and buy me a setup
You have a literal fucking simp army? And you still beg for insulin on darkent ib's? You NEED to kill yourself ASAP!
>i don't even want to argue about that
Harakiri to end your disgrace, imagine getting btfo by flat earthers and goal setters.

P83893
>There are units, IU, insulin units. Most syringes have 50 units loaded, biggest ones have 100
woahhhh!!! just like mutagens in cdda!
now that quirky design choice makes sense
>5ml syringes
huh? what kinda bitchass syringes are those?
the one i bought to help filter those bomb precursors is like 20ml im p sure
lemme check
lmao its more
20ml is the labeled part, if i pull all the way it can fit 30ml
yea just get one of those
btw, emptying syringes will prolly void the guarantee of sterility in them
but then again, youre gonna die anyway, whats a little infection gonna do
>Your wards are also innawoods?
lmao mine too
ig its common sense that its better to risk letting your loonies loose in the wilderness than in the city
>quantum immortality
thats prolly whats going on with me too tbh
>Have you forgot about an entire fucking paragraph where she describes her appearance, any cashier is going to get sirens blasting in his head when she makes an appearance.
o shit dat tru
just go in disguised as a construction worker
buy some overwalls
oh wait, shes poor
yea nvm its over
>She is poor, but lets not forget where she lives
true
shes prolly better off than me if she got a ps4 lying around like that
>Lets not forget about the white cisgender male privilege
yea the privilege of being bitchless
how glorious
>I think all the "care" she got only made it even worse, bitch can't even kill herself without hand holding.
p standard for pussyhavers tbh
even here its hard to find a bitch that isnt a total damsel
>2 lazy to look this shit up, wassat?
bearded man in a dress explains why anon is retarded 2000 years before he was even born

>that's just a part of lpjs experience
yes, vidrel is what the peak lolipantsu javascript experience is like
you newfags havent seen whats good yet

>now that quirky design choice makes sense
I wanted to sperg about it too but no one besides you can understand me
>huh? what kinda bitchass syringes are those?
Go on, try to inject 20 milliliters of jewish chemicals straight into your blood stream, no breaks allowed. 20ml's is a shitload and there's no need to ever inject this much because insulin is soluble af. Buying ampules also saves up lots of ml's because they tend to be denser.
>btw, emptying syringes will prolly void the guarantee of sterility in them
Nah, it really doesn't matter all that much, you won't catch much just from thin air getting inside
>ig its common sense that its better to risk letting your loonies loose in the wilderness than in the city
Which is weird because it makes way easier for them to escape.
>just go in disguised as a construction worker
F-grade-males don't work on construction sites because they are too stupid to follow OSHA regulations. I doubt she's strong enough to pick up a welding transformer
>buy some overwalls
>oh wait, shes poor
Overalls won't change the fact that she's a 150cm 40kg caricature of megumin, on construction sites they don't even have the overalls that can match her figure, all the fucking vests niggas get are oversized, pretty sure it's like that all over the world, you only get the "too small" option in the military. By the way, if they don't have lockers on a construction site (that's 90% of all sites) you can just barge in and grab their shit, mf's often throw those annoying bright coats and shiny helmets on the ground because why the fuck would you need those when you're cutting tiles. I lost count of how many paint thinners and circular blades i niggered away while workers were busy masturbating somewhere on the inside. All my badass tarp clothes that i wear while cooking were also borrowed some gas emergency service guys.
>shes prolly better off than me if she got a ps4 lying around like that
It's weird that her mom started to "sell our stuff" because she has no income but she had left the console and a TV untouched. Wonder what she's selling, her used underwear?

I really want to get high but i have absolutely no reason to, next poster decides for me

P83893
>i have no idea what kind of shit have you made up in your head
well if you wanna explain something to me then it's your problem to make sure i understood correctly smh haha
but i guess you suggest something like literally from those self-help guides kek
>all that i need to is to set a goal and think for six and a half seconds is it physically possible or not
dont call that shit long term
also you're a moron literally shut the fuck up lol
>Consider taking insulin.
felt asleep lmao, now woke up and feel better
reality = hacked
>I think at this point you're physically ill.
dude you sound like you're not even aware of manic-depressive phases go take your drugs normie lol
>You read those?
not really, just read a couple
>Who said anything about abandoning your goal because you failed your planning, if you fail your plan you don't give up on the goal you just construct a new one.
ok, now we are getting somewhere
i see your point now i guess but i feel like you never started to look into mine lol
>Better to waste your time just chilling? If you don't enjoy the process of committing to your goal
i think i'd like to chill while committing to my goal lmao
like obv you can't chill all the time but you said something about autistically enjoying moving to the "goal". yea i think i am literally incapable of that, no dopamine or whatever from "moving to the point B", i just like "walking the road" lmao
and considering all that's been said, i dunno who of us is more fucked kek
>We were talking about free beer
so we're talking not about how to become self-reliant and move on with our goals, but how to achieve goals while being on welfare? you are already on support then, sheesh, that makes it easier lol
>Currently i want to shout lots of personal insults
don't get too mad, that's just a part of lpjs experience ;p

P83912
i really want to get high but cant rn so have fun for me too kthx bye

P83893

>There are units
just looked it up. 1ml is 100 units. so it would be 10.100 units if i just buy one pack. but i want to be sure it works. how many packs of 10 should i buy?

>Are there those funny electromagnetic locks?
its fully digital/electric as in you just slide a pass on some surface and the door opens

>Your wards are also innawoods? Didn't know it was an international trend, are the roads also utterly fucked, or do you have proper asphalt in 1st world yuropa?
wasnt going to self dox but i wanna die anyways so meh. plus im on doxbin fyi! so, my psych ward is in this mini city-like thing. its where you have therapy, different wards, my previous group home, anorexia groups, home for the elderly and drug addicts, etc. it even has a mini hotel, a professional resturant, cafes, a farm, and a barn. also a middle school for special needs. its surrounded by shitty half built roads full of mud that lead nowhere. all in the middle of forests. aside from that theres only 2 main roads where you can enter it, from what i know. idk its a huge place

>Nigga, it was "i am not sure if i actually have autism the test's results were inconclusive" just a few posts ago
everyone assumes that it is the case idk. my autistic bf says i make his autism radar go off every day

>don't worry the bar is low because cocaine is cheap
cocaine here is about 50 euro per gram. however, speed/amphetamine is 5 euro per gram :) its what my bf does

>How hot can it get?
hot enough to sound like a jet engine

>This bitch doesn't seem poor at all!
this was the only laptop with the requirements i needed for my college. i was studying software dev. drained all our money :>

>You have a literal fucking simp army? And you still beg for insulin on darkent ib's? You NEED to kill yourself ASAP!
its called having adult friends that care. wouldnt ask them to help me kill myself.


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>shes prolly better off than me if she got a ps4 lying around like that
mom's former best friend was a rich gay guy. he loved me a lot. he bought me the ps4 and a phone some years ago. hes also the reason why we have a good smart tv and i had a laptop at the time. my mom insisted on buying the cheapest things but he peer pressured and helped her buy things that will actually last longer than 3 months.


also update!
mom just brought the pc back to my room. said it was "a little mistake on her part". she assumed her bf wanted to take the pc for himself bc thats what she'd do in his position but he just said i can keep it lol. good guy :> also helped me pay my phone bill before he left because my card had been cancelled

>I wanted to sperg about it too but no one besides you can understand me
btw i learned a new trick
yk how listeing to music gives you a permanent optimistic perk?
well, it also made you a bit deaf, you prolly already knew that
but now they nerfed it to reduce your stats a bit
like reaction time and i forgot the rest
something like -10%
but it has an impact on dodging
cant have that
well, i have cat ears and enhanced hearing implant
i also installed a stereo on my car
i keep that shit turned on 24/7
oh yea and the shitty songs on your phone only give +20 mood
your car on the other hand, only plays straight fire
+30 mood
and with my hearing, i can listen to that music from 2 blocks away inside a basement
i wish i was exaggerating
so now not only i get +30 permanent mood, i also dont take any penalties to hearing or dodging
btw idk if they already implemented hearing sensitive when youre near noise like they did to light
yk how you cant see into a dark place when youre in the light, but when you walk into the dark and you see again?
i wonder if they did that to noise
like if youre too close to loud noise you cant hear quiet noise far away
id be disappointed if they hadnt
>try to inject 20 milliliters of jewish chemicals straight into your blood stream, no breaks allowed.
now that i think about it, even in cdda the primers comes 1ml at a time
and yea injecting 10 will kill you
yes, cdda is unironically my baseline for reality now
they are a trustworthy source
>Overalls won't change the fact that she's a 150cm 40kg caricature of megumin, on construction sites they don't even have the overalls that can match her figure, all the fucking vests niggas get are oversized
just imagined that teeny tiny menhera wearing comically oversized clothes in an attempt to enter a construction shop in disguise
cute
>pretty sure it's like that all over the world
yea and also since always
im my research of pirate clothing last year, i learned that the reason shit like belts and sashes and buttons and foldable sleeves exist is bc working class outfit are always mass produced for an entire crew and must fit everyone, and its easier to tie up big clothes and to fit in small ones

>next poster decides for me
dont

>felt asleep lmao, now woke up and feel better
sleep is the ultimate antidepressant
>you sound like you're not even aware of manic-depressive phases
only mentally ill genetic deadends with zero prospect of improving know about shit like that
go talk to denpa on his board, he just like you fr
>>>/jyhad/
>not really, just read a couple
<nooo haha i dont read them, but yea i do haha
>i see your point now i guess but i feel like you never started to look into mine lol
well if you wanna explain something to me then it's your problem to make sure i understood correctly smh haha
>yea i think i am literally incapable of that, no dopamine or whatever from "moving to the point B",
deep fried zoomzoom brain from too much interwebz
many such cases

P83936
forgot pic

P83933
>also a middle school for special needs. its surrounded by shitty half built roads full of mud that lead nowhere. all in the middle of forests
wow sounds epic
are you sure you weren't sexually enslaved or organ-harvested while being pumped full on experimental drugs there? like damn if i wanted a place to do that kind of shit to ppl who won't be missed much because of the reasons like yours, then it's how i'd do it
>good guy :>
is being adopted by him an option? i think even if you get diddled by him a little bit, it's going to help your mental illness lol, like dealing with crazy mom must not be helping your case

P83933 (dubs of dummy wummy)
<You'd want minimum 400 units getting shot into your bloodstream, i assume that's way above lethal for someone with your complexion.
>just looked it up. 1ml is 100 units. so it would be 10.100 units if i just buy one pack. but i want to be sure it works. how many packs of 10 should i buy?
dammit bitch, just do the fucking math
are you actually clinically retarded?
its literally just arithmetic
you should be able to solve this
<Are there those funny electromagnetic locks?
>its fully digital/electric as in you just slide a pass on some surface and the door opens
shes too dumb to know
you need at least a -1 modifier on INT to identify what a door is
>mini city-like thing
so like a campus?
>i was studying software dev
damn
no wonder you ended up like this
we are all hacker failures in here
welcome home
>its called having adult friends that care
based
>wouldnt ask them to help me kill myself
go live with him and be his stay-at-home sexslave
>mom just brought the pc back to my room
good, now you can forget all about this suicide nonsense and cope your pain away
clearly calculating lethal doses is too hard for you

P83936
>go talk to denpa on his board, he just like you fr
denpa hates me lol, ive been shot down too many times and he seems way too fried at this point anyway
like he always be like "reeee don't touch me" but now it's even worse and he just gets depressed
><nooo haha i dont read them, but yea i do haha
i really dont tho, like once every 2 years don't count
>well if you wanna explain something to me then it's your problem to make sure i understood correctly smh haha
lol jeffie it's not for you even so it's not your place to make that line hehe
>deep fried zoomzoom brain from too much interwebz
tbh it sounds worse than it is and i kinda know what i should be doing yadda yadda

>he seems way too fried at this point
yea that was me, sorry
i ruined her

P83903
>lolipantsu javascript experience
But is it POSIX compliant?

>well if you wanna explain something to me then it's your problem to make sure i understood correctly smh
I am not a teacher, or a tard wrangler. I deliberately speak in ubiquitous ways so u get mad and angy, i could just list my goals but no i won't, it's le privatè and we are talking about abstract metaphysical concepts.
>but i guess you suggest something like literally from those self-help guides
Take a deep breath and count to ten backwards
I am suggesting the most obvious shit ever, life is meaningless without a meaning.
>dont call that shit long term
The goal is long term, you don't need fucking months of planning in advance to decide something in your life.
>you're a moron
I may be a moron but you're a fucking imbecile. That's way above you according to the psychiatrists.
>woke up and feel better
I adore waking up too, best shit ever unless you're hangover
>dude you sound like you're not even aware of manic-depressive phases
I swear to god i've seen a twitter post saying the exact same thing
Being goth is a phase idk about being a maniac or depressed, denpa should elaborate on this one, he surely has lots to say.
>go take your drugs
2 late, they were flushed down the drain during an epic battle with the shadows in the corner of my eye
>ok, now we are getting somewhere
We're are far from the culmination arc
>i see your point now i guess but i feel like you never started to look into mine
I am sorry but isn't your point just abandoning all hope and consuming dumb shit all day, that's what FC and jb do and it's not going all that smoothly.
Get yourself a goal
>i think i'd like to chill while committing to my goal lmao
That would be nice
>obv you can't chill all the time but you said something about autistically enjoying moving to the "goal"
Yeah that's called progression and achievement, you don't even need dopamine to feel it.
>i think i am literally incapable of that
Sucks to b u ig, continue being a refrigerator until your vacuum pump is still able to hold the void inside.
>no dopamine or whatever
I can feel proud even while hangover so it's probably something deeper than turning into a pavlov's dog, guess you really aren't cut out for goals.
>so we're talking not about how to become self-reliant and move on with our goals, but how to achieve goals while being on welfare?
We are talking about goals and how committing to them makes my brain spin in all dimensions. The welfare and self reliance part is loosely related to the energy that's required to work on goals, obviously it's way easier to be a welfare king.
>don't get too mad, that's just a part of lpjs experience
Don't worry to much shit flinging is just a part of lpjs experience P83903
>just looked it up. 1ml is 100 units
It's not always the case with insulin syringes, is it the case with the ones that you want to buy? Would suck if they are actually 50 units
>so it would be 10.100 units if i just buy one pack
It would be precisely one thousand units
>how many packs of 10 should i buy?
1000 units is well above LD100 for a girl with your weight, 10 is an overkill. Don't forget that you aren't diabetic and you produce quite a huge chunk of insulin on your own, you really don't need all that much people have died from 100 units before.
>its fully digital/electric as in you just slide a pass on some surface and the door opens
Very interesting information. I repeat, are the locks electromagnetic?
>my psych ward is in this mini city-like thing
>proceeds to describe a fucking cottage
Damn our wards are more like prisons, rebar on windows, barbed wire, all that shit. Still easy to escape.
>cocaine here is about 50 euro per gram
That's cheap af, cocaine here is 400$ a gram and it's fucking chalk too, plus it's sold only in one city that has a single vendor that probably has something to do with the border guards. No coke growers anywhere nearby so we have to make our ends meet with cathinones.
>however, speed/amphetamine is 5 euro per gram
That's surprisingly cheap considering how much the precursors cost, i suppose it's adulterated caffeine based chalk, just like here.
>its what my bf does
Must be hard getting railed for 10 hours straight, ever tried amphetamine yourself?
>this was the only laptop with the requirements i needed for my college
YOU CAN AFFORD A FUCKING COLLEGE TOO?
Btw, how old are you? Aren't you like 18? You've been to college already? When exactly you dropped out?
>i was studying software dev
Prove it in the hapa thread.
>its called having adult friends that care
Properly functional adults don't form parasocial bonds over radiowaves. They are either retarded or simp for bpdussy, which is honestly the same thing.
>she assumed her bf wanted to take the pc for himself bc thats what she'd do in his position but he just said i can keep it lol
>good guy
Terminal cuckoldism
Imagine caring for your step daughter if you can't even fuck her brains out.
>music
>but now they nerfed it to reduce your stats a bit
The fat fucking faggot who did that should buy insulin.
>your car on the other hand, only plays straight fire
It's been like that for a while, stereo systems are for some reason objectively better than your ipods.
>i wonder if they did that to noise
Nah not yet.
>yes, cdda is unironically my baseline for reality now
Now try DF and SS13
>just imagined that teeny tiny menhera wearing comically oversized clothes in an attempt to enter a construction shop in disguise
Step-inspector i am stuck in a cement mixer!
>i learned that the reason shit like belts and sashes and buttons and foldable sleeves exist is bc working class outfit are always mass produced for an entire crew and must fit everyone
Well they weren't mass produced, i am pretty sure they were made individually, but yeah just like 100 years ago a pair of boots could be shared by the whole family.
>dammit bitch, just do the fucking math
She was on a course of neuroleptics have some sympathy for this poor soul, this shit is a menace for your brain. I couldn't even speak properly while they lasted and i seriously struggled with reading.
>go live with him and be his stay-at-home sexslave
I could fix her, with experimental mephedrone containing theRAPEutic methods.

watch?v=YNTkg4olZOM
Shit's straight gas

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>I am not a teacher
your pwoblem, not mine :p
>life is meaningless without a meaning
life is meaningless regardless
also i want to find purpose beyond life, so yea, i am crazy
perhaps i have fried meself while trying to picture a grand scheme of things
>you don't need fucking months of planning in advance to decide something in your life
i guess i do have goals like that, but having them or moving towards doesn't make me feel purpose at all lol, so i guess wiring my brain to enjoy the process makes most sense
>2 late, they were flushed down the drain during an epic battle with the shadows in the corner of my eye
wasteful, should've sold them
>We're are far from the culmination arc
nah i am pretty much done lol

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>using matrix
Use XMPP w OMEMO